Shattered confusions

well, the title is a little self explanitory if you understand it, maybe it would after you read

 

 

Well here again I lie in bed

Feeling the dread

Feeling like I’m dead

 

Just lying here and staring up

Wondering what I’m missing now

Looking out the window by glance

The moon happen to glow full by chance

 

It stares back and I turn away

No eyes shall look in mine

No, not today

 

Still in thought staring up again

Keeping all my assumptions

So full of these feelings

Sleep is not an option

 

So many feelings I have

I never thought it possible

To have so much inside at once

Just unsure of each one and what

 

I don’t know how to name them all

Or what each one feels like

They all run together

It’s more like a mental strike

 

I see a light and blink once

But it still is there

It appears to be so bright and fare

I just cannot break my stare

 

Then it leaves and I’m alone again

But it leaves behind something to be said

That was no ordinary light

It was a light to show the truths instead

So now I sit up and smile a bit

Still not able to sleep adrift

My dreams are so nice and so not

Always searching in them what’s always been sought

 

Low and hold I take a handful of air

It holds nothing, yet does not show what’s inside me

One more swipe and I have caught something

I hold the world in my palm

Just so easy, free, and careless

 

What a phrase that shows me

To hold something so big so easily

Now I realize a few things

Glad to the winds I was listening

 

I blow on my hand

And it’s gone again

But no more do I distress

I have passed the test

 

No more wondering what this all means

Making life my own scene

I need no one to tell me what to do

All I guess I really needed was that simple bit

Showing me what’s rarely seen when people are out of it

 

I’m back to conscious still and lie back down

Cover up and smile without a sound

I turn on my side and close my eyes

The morning sun will bring new arise

 

Shattered confusions

Reviews

[Adela Muresan]

Your thoughts and intense emotions are reflected in a very sincere and beautiful way.
I like the fonts too.

A.M.

P.S.: I really didn't know what to write on this one, but I did put down something dough, cuz it was worth it :P.