Again

This is a pretty emo poem I wrote when I was going through a bout of depression.

Again

 

I fall down again

On my pile of knives and guns!

I fall back again

To the trenches where rage is fun!

I got cut again

By an army with jagged knives!

I hate myself again

I am the one I always despise!

 

Flipping back the pages

Seeing myself wither in time

I cannot recollect

Whatever was once mine

This hideout in a maze

Is the place that I call home

Inside my vicinity

There is an old and beaten tome

This is the book I read

When I kill everything I see

These are tools I use

When my inner demon is set free

 

I die inside again

Why did they just pass?

I die inside again

Is my heart stone as glass?

I die inside again

Is my heart nothing but true?

I die inside again

Why'd my persona have to be you?

 

Whoever told me that

"It's not win or lose

It's all about having fun"?

I gave up the right to choose

When I made an enemy of God

Beaten paths I tread

Looking for my old bitter home

Like a needle through a thread

I unravel things not meant to be seen

By anyone except my dad

I cannot stand to lose

Whenever I win I'm glad

 

I die outside again

The flies around my corpse...

I die outside again

Showing nothing but remorse...

I die outside again

I never ever picked a fight...

I die outside again

Goodnight...