Perpetrator

No one beilieve in innocence of the not guilty

In a dark, meaningless, and lonely world I walk

Street and home filled with whispers a dark symphony  

Cried, lost my voice only for no one to listen

Eyes swollen like a venomous spider sting

Cut to see if I still felt

Lost everything but own self disappointment

Got a head full despair filled with images of strangers

Felt ashamed of all that “I did”

If I saw no wrong, I did no wrong

What is my freedom worth when no one believes my words?

I’m down upon my knees, asking the one above why he seems to delay

My nights are sleepless my days are dark

Colorblind to the brightness of a life away from harm and insecurity

I’m drowning and asphyxiating with a fever which seems to not pass

Dreams of dying fill my subconscious, warm and inviting calling my name

Where was my innocence?

Why does no one seem to believe my troubles?

Is there any cure for my life, or was it too late for this disease?

I am punished for the wrong others annihilate with no remorse, no fear behind their eyes

Not me, I can see the truth that lies behind

LISTEN! PLEASE! I yell “I am a devil in angel shoes” “a victim”

Still, my pleads not heard

Back side of heads I get, the ones I love no longer remember who I once was,  

Another blame to live with, another web of guilt captures my freedom

Now I lack strength to move

All have walked and watched me fall

Failed to give them reason to trust, reasons to be missed

I’m thinking it’s a sign for my troubled head

Am I really the perpetrator?

That everything seems perfect from a far

Away they stay, away they will stay

All left to do is live all accusations and run

Goodbye all who I love

I can’t be saved, for time will never wear this feeling away

In the end my presence might still lingerer

Author's Note

This wont make sense to most but it does to the ones that always seem to take blame for others. At the end it makes us doubt ourselfs and make us think we are truly at fault. This is how i feel latley i wrote the way words can best describe. Thank for taking the time to read and please comment.

Reviews

[Ahmad Cox]

Very beautiful an honest poem. Thank you for sharing.

[Ees]

I like the way you start this. It is nicely dark.
The third line seems a bit jumbled in the wording to me- you may want to look at that line again and see if there is a simpler way to state the things that you want to say.
"Got a head full despair filled with images of strangers"- seems a little jumbled yet again.

I think that some stanzas could benefit this poem. Structure tends to make it easier to read these types of poems, but the words are very powerful and pretty well stated. I do feel a dark yearning as I read this and sadness... what you meant for me to feel as you wrote it, I am sure. really great job writing this intense poem! I liked reading it. I hesitate to say I liked the poem itself, I did, but I feel like there must be a better word than to say that I enjoyed reading a poem that makes me feel this way. You did what I writer is supposed to, you brought out my emotion as I read.

Good job!

[Coyote Poetry]

Many kind of people. Some people can fall into the emotion of pleasure and pain. More pain then good in our world. Description was very good. Allow the reader to feel the struggle and the questions. No weakness in the excellent story.
Coyote

[Baby Ricochet]

I'm currently reading Heart of Darkness and The Perks of being a wall flower (One online the other a book, made out of paper and everything) now this. I don't take the blame for others so much as I've been scapegoated before so on some level I do relate to this poem. Great job

[Becca Bishop]

This is too amazing to describe with words. It gave me goosebumps. Thank you for sharing it :) :) :)

[Dark Tower]

A truely beautiful and expressive piece.

[Anonymous Girl]

Ah nice! I feel that sometimes! Soo cool! ^^

[Damien Davison]

You can really feel the pain and intense emotions here. You have a great way of expressing them. Thank you very much for sharing.

[B-poet]

I've been down this road before. I truly feel where you're coming from. All you can do is find the lesson that needs to be learned from each experience and try not to make the same mistake twice or more. Great job. :)

[Tex]

very nice emotion in this. Isn't it strange how others wish to put their shame on us? I felt that you understood this concept and communicated that in this write.