Scared of Reality

A women feeling regret of her past and what they have caused in her life

 In reality I see a women 30 years of age

Mirror says 50

 

In reality I see size 17

Mirror says 24

 

In reality I see a husband

Mirror says boyfriend

 

In reality I see children

Mirror says signs of a once marriage

 

In reality I see laughter

Mirror says sorrow

 

In reality I see glass of wine

Mirror says liquor

 

In reality I see a home

Mirror says rooms

 

In reality I see a career

Mirror says a job

 

In reality I see friends

Mirror says acquaintances

 

Reality says satisfied

Mirror says aching heart

 

My reality is unknown

Living suck between a mirror and self consciousness

Finding no peace in thought or sleep

In desperation I fight anguished and tormented by both

Wanting, pleading, and needing to find own inner peace

I know one is my true self

Neither is what I ever wished for

The choices I once made came with the price I now will pay

I will fight eternally until the day I break free

Author's Note

Comment please. nothing in particular just felt like writing :)

Reviews

[b.platte]

Girl, you need a new mirror.

People see what they feel sometimes in mirrors. They see the worst or the best depending on their moods. Pick a hobby that satisfies you and try to make yourself happy. :)

Go outside on a bright sunny day and breath it in.

I liked the way you pointed out the differences in so many things that affect people everyday though. (job vs career, friend vs acquaintances, self image)

[I am renee]

Beautiful, I loved it. you are a awesome writer. girl you need to write a book and get it published :)

[Sarah Ramsbottom]

so very true. No matter what a female looks like, for some reason we feel we are never enough. Beautiful, just like you.

[Tex]

this was so good I am married 34 years this year and I can not tell you how often I have wanted to throw out my wife's mirror. I don't know what it is in our society that bends women's minds (advertizing the ideal?) but we need to find it and kill it!

loved this. thank you.

did you mean to say this?

Living suck between a mirror and self consciousness OR THIS

Living stuck between a mirror and self consciousness

[Emberlorna]

I love it. It's so true. We all feel this way at times and we let our insecurities get the best of us. Great write :}

[Rob Santana]

Reality or life can be harsh,unforgiving. But do you have the luxury of quiting? Most of us don't. Good write,hang in there eyes green.

[Chance]

Wow. I hope you feel the power of those words. I had to read it three times.

[Baby Ricochet]

WOw. Powerful piece. I once loved some one with an eating disorder. That goddamn mirror can be one evil b***h.

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Whoa that was pretty sad, I read one sad poem and then THIS? T-T *lip quivers madly* Still though, I loved how you wrote this, pretty darn wicked! ^-^

[thisis2]

A very thought provoking piece. Makes me want to double check my reality vs my reflection. I think the difference between whether someone will receive this as a positive feeing or a negative feelings depends on whether or not that someone believes more in their on reality or what they see in the reflection....