101 Things I Couldn't Have Done Without You

My memories of you:

1. Talking with you about our problems, then working them through.
2. Staying up to all hours, not knowing if I'll be able to get any sleep.
3. Making a feeble attempt at making a clay ferret.
4. Going to the library countless times, trying to get summer homework done, but really never accomplishing anything.
5. Playing catch with you, which resulted in me giving you a black eye.
6. Going on a bike ride and running into your back wheels.
7. Writing on the play equipment in the park across from your grandma's.
8. Running around Lincoln Lagoon, trying not to leave you behind.
9. Watching you play violin at a school concert.
10. Going to McDonald's and eating chicken nuggets and drinking Shamrock shakes.
11. Drinking mixed together barbecue sauce for your amusement.
12. Shooting off fireworks in the middle of the street on the Forth of July.
13. Sleeping with you and Nicole in the camper.
14. Going to the movies and dying of laughter when watching Twilight, and when Jasper comes on the screen and you fall on the ground.
15. Almost get kicked out of the theater.
16. Running around the side of the theater to 'go to imagination land'.
17. Texting you, talking to you, calling you.
18. Spending a birthday with you, and giving you a special handmade present.
19. Stealing Jesse's bandanna and keeping it for about two years.
20. Laying in the bottom bunk and pushing up and mattress with my feet, with you in the top.
21. Making plans with you that we know are never going to happen.
22. Buying graduation dresses from the same shop, and letting you take the one that I really wanted.
23. Spending a whole culture fair with you and determining to go back, but never actually going.
24. Complaining about how horrible a French teacher Miss. Barnes is.
25. Getting yelled at for talking in the computer room even though we weren't, but everyone else in the class was.
26. Eating the ice from your cup.
27. Going to Panda to celebrate Nicole's birthday.
28. Having lockers that are right next to each other.
29. Playing 'truth or truth'.
30. Laughing hystericaly when Nicole's Willy Wonka mustache was stuck to your butt.
31. Playing DDR again.
32. Eating pickles and peanut butter.
33. Making your grandma drive us to Piggly Wiggly to buy some tea.
34. Forcing myself to eat a whole Whopper.
35. Petting Abby and Emma.
36. Randomly popping over on my bicycle and visit you over the summer.
37. Spending three years in the same advisory with.
38. Listening to music on the computer.
39. Putting gum in our 'gum locker' in the locker room at Lincoln.
40. Sitting in the 'deck' part of Nicole's house and talking about anything and everything.
41. Decorating Ego.
42. Making clay hand prints on black pieces of paper, one sheet for each so that we could keep them forever. I still have mine.
43. Talking to Uncle Randy and watching movies with him and you, like Slumdog Millionaire.
44. Letting Uncle Randy make my first malt shake.
45. Learning how to make duct tape flowers, which I still suck at making.
46. Writing in that journal that you gave me 4 years ago.
47. Keeping a little 'black journal' where we gossiped about everyone in the class.
48. Asking Cooper out for you in Art class.
49. Laughing about Robby's old farmer boy shirts and long hippie hair.
50. Dating the same guys.
51. Going to homecoming with you and crying together because we found out that Josh might have cancer.
52. Talking about our boy troubles.
53. Playing at the library park, waiting for our rides to pick us up late at night.
54. Spinning on the merry-go-round talking about our Jesse troubles.
55. Making up fake people together, like Victor, just because we were bored.
56. Texting people at two in the morning just to see who was up.
57. Me trying green tea for the first time and completely hating it.
58. Waiting to hear your scream for me while I'm marching in the Fourth of July parade.
59. Laying underneath the stairs at night, in your usual spot, watching the fireworks.
60. Laughing together about how your brothers are afraid of me.
61. Get rides home from your mom, even if you weren't at school.
62. Sitting with you at lunch. (Ah Chris...)
63. Dragging you to Breakfast with the bands because I forgot that it was that weekend.
64. Buying friendship bracelets that I don't think either of us ever wore.
65. Watching Degrassi together and playing a Mario game on Nicole's Wii.
66. Criticizing the lack of clothes on a model for a clothing website.
67. You breaking up with a few of my boyfriends...
68. Stealing all kinds of food from your grandma's fridge and cupboards
69. Throwing your phone up in the air at Arrow and getting that weird picture of an eye.
70. Convincing you to get your own WC.
71. Drooling over 'Jesus'.
72. Taking pictures together at the end of a band concert.
73. Meeting up at McDonald's, all three of us, just because we had nothing else to do.
74. Almost killing ourselves when part of the computer table fell on us.
75. Getting to see your real house for the first time.
76. Throwing a bun around during lunch.
77. Always eating at least one of your 'fun fruits'.
78. Talking about how hot Mr. Caldwell is.
79. You biting off your fingernail polish and me telling you that you had it in your teeth.
80. Making a prank call and telling the person that we were being mugged.
81. Witnessing your first kiss.
82. Paying for each other when we didn't have money.
83. Buying gauges, and me getting you into them.
84. Making and receiving personalized Christmas cards from each other. I still have a few.
85. Walking to school with you and Nicole the first couple of months of ninth grade. 
86. Attending International Club.
87. Watching my first Fred video.
88. Stopping over just so Uncle Randy could pump up my bike tires with air.
89. Sitting next to each other in gym class.
90. That wickedly awesome shadow box we made in sixth grade.
91. Owning your cleavage. :D
92. Nicole's dad driving just a little bit too fast... I liked it though.
93. You reading my stories, even thought they were horrible.
94. Your ability to choke or trip on anything.
95. You always getting hurt on way or another.
96. That... incident in advisory in sixth grade. I don't think you understand how hard, what you said, hit home.
97. The yellow outfit that you used to always wear.
98. Going tricker-treating with you, and just happening to see Frankenstein.
99. The way that you never cared what anybody said about you, no matter how bad.
100. Talking about your real dad and how you were worried about your sister.
101. Most importantly, your ability to always forgive me.

     I think that I finally relieve why you're so mad at me.  This is my fault, so one way or another I'm going to try and take the blame for this.  I wish that I could say things like this to your face, but you know I'm not that kind of person, I wouldn't ever have the courage to do that.  So I'm going to say it here. I think, and I could be wrong, I know the reason why you are mad at me. I told you that nobody matters, which in turn means that you don't matter.  Looking back now I can't believe that I even said that.  But I need to tell you this, you do matter to me, otherwise I wouldn't be trying so hard to get your friendship back. Does that show for something?  I said that I've never let anyone in, which is a lie.  I've let three people in, more than anyone else. You, Nicole, and Sam.  The only reason why I said that I've never let anyone in is because there are a few things, that I've done and learned of, that I told myself that I would never tell anyone. I think that I've already told you one or two of them though... But I realize that everyone must have things like this, and if I'm assuming wrong, well then I'm wrong. It's as simple as that. No one is more important to me than the people that I call my friends. I still want to call you my friend, but in my book friendship has to go both ways. I just want to know if your still willing to work through this and be my friend.  My 'relationship' with WC will always be a touchy subject, it just means so much to me and it kills me that it's the reason for why we're fighting.  And if I do take things out on you and I don't let you off easy just shows that I care about you in one way or another.  If we can make it through all of those rough patches, then we just get all the stronger because of them.  I think I don't let you off easy is because when you hurt me, it's a lot tougher for me to get over because you just mean that much to me.
    Anyways Korrin, I'll get to my point.  You can believe the things that I've said, or you can not believe them.  But what I'm asking is this:

Can you find it in your heart to forgive me one more time?

Author's Note

This is for personal purposes only.
(I got stuck somewhere in the 70's.)