Cold

Just something I threw together.

Cold

The feeling of warmth

Was a feeling that once swathed me

Kept me happy

Smiling

Going

But now, I don’t know what that’s like

To feel the sensation that someone really cares

Cares that you’re freaking out on the inside

Losing your mind

Feeling dead.

To the core, I feel numb.

It feels like I have no heart

No spirit

No warmth.

What I would do to feel again.

What I would do to have a heart again.

The tears I cry, to most, are unseen.

The sobs unheard.

The smile I put on, is one of the greatest facades I use.

You’ll look at me and laugh because I laugh.

I laugh because I know that will make you happy.

When the people I love are happy…it makes me…

A bit more…

Warm.

That everything I do is not worthless

It gives me a meaning

A purpose

I feel, that to everyone that I wish I could care about more than simply a friend

I am invisible.

I try to get to you, to express that I feel a bit more than

Friends

To you.

But those are always unseen and

Futile

Efforts.

But no matter how many times, I feel invisible,

I keep going and smiling

So those I care about and love

Are happy.

Because they all deserve to be happy.

Even if I’m

Cold

Author's Note

Yeah...it's not that great. It's something I threw together at the last minute, but it's kinda how I'm feeling a bit lately.