So, So

The search for happiness.

Days pass

and I can hardly believe

what a waste of time

this is.

Just a few more days of

wishing, I think.

What's there to wish for?

If I can't gain anything,

then I'm lost.

If I can't have you,

then I'm alone.

Lost and alone

or "so, so."

 

I keep wanting,

wishing

for someone to come around.

Look at me! I whisper

to the crowd.

But no one even turns to

glance at the lonely girl

within herself.

Invisible, unreachable...

tell me, is that all

I am?

If I can't gain anything,

then I'm lost.

If I can't have you,

then I'm alone.

Lost and alone.

Both sad

and "so, so."

 

Love is all I'm asking for,

affection all that I crave,

and if I keep it in

it'll go down with me

to my grave.

So, so...

tell me

or at least look at me

before life passes by too soon.

Hold me tender,

hold me sweet

'cause I ache for you

beside me.

If I gain something,

then I have a purpose.

If I have you,

then I'm full.

Happy and true

and so not "so, so."

Author's Note

You know, many people think that the search for happiness is a long, hard journey. For some, yes. For me? I had to find it within myself. Once I realized how simple it was, I stopped thinking how complicated it was and just let myself be. Then, I was happy.

Reviews

[John]

I love your description as much as the poem, though the poem convinces me more. Really enjoyed it.

[Joiedevivre]

so true! even a a child I dreaded mediocrity (even if in my adult life i have come to wish for it at times).