FurloughA Poem by Evilhappywrite please read and enjoyBy my own standards and principles lofty morals, ideals, and values I am a bad person a complete and total failure Hypocrisy, toxicity, vanity, petty desperation abusive anger and aimless destruction, deprecation of identity no respect or reverence for life, vile and small, harmful declarations of my immature, pitiful, hatred for all with a four cornered mouth, love, peace, chaos and selfish affairs the distressful ever-present need to know someone cares! Even if I have to preserve their love in memory, to preserve dead affection it's all just a narcissistic circus serving the draining need for attention deceptive perception tricks the attunement to socialization, am I insane, a psychopath, no, I am defined by my frequency of anxiety, manic depression and total self-deconstructive complete desecration self-serving lies, when I run into the rules I expect from others the rule no longer applies convenience, laziness, manipulative extroverted energy spent to the extent of cruelty and exhaustion it'd be easier to hide every shred of evidence I have a past as this more safely avoided b*****d than to keep trying, one shred of humanity, to get in touch with the decency I know is within me it's easy to blame all the problematic seasons of my nature on any event or individual those excuses satisfy prescriptions and doctors, they pass off the edge of being awkward socially but I know my malice the limit of it stretches out slowly While I extend two arms from my spirit to crush the evil down less into a capability then into a capacity, make it less my reality and more a controlled crystalline statistical anomaly, I know my heart chakra has been destroyed perfectly though I have no disillusion of persecution or saviorship; even this I can repair, with medication, meditation, time and poetry a journey. © 2021 Evilhappy |
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Added on March 8, 2021 Last Updated on March 8, 2021 AuthorEvilhappyWaco, TXAboutI'm a garbage person, I live in Texas. I love writing and everything I know about it I learned by doing it on my own. Frequent uploads and majority of work here: https://www.deviantart.com/evilhappy.. more..Writing
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