Pill YourselfA Poem by Evilhappywrite please read and enjoyFor the faint of heart: When I was a child I could not sit still teachers took notice; offense to this parents took me to the doctor and we started up that hill I took my first pill A child of my time and place had no voice we were hit like adults when we talked like adults and when we were told to do something we had no choice I was so stiff, I was the comatose mind of a dead child
walking my overactive mind sedated they said I was intelligent, said they knew my kind it always felt like there was something about me they hated I was a first grader who couldn't sit still and the doctor said give him this pill Bottles rattle in my nightstand drawer on nights like
tonight faces of everyone I've ever loved, shoved into the back and
outta sight I want to forget, you won't go away when you're not even
here without a fight I push and ignore you, I don't even see you, I don't even
want to and still neurons send those fiery messages, torchbearers
carry the light Faint of heart, I am feint of heart I am a duplicitous scoundrel, a monger and mongrel a disharmonic chorus of voices play their part stirring me up inside all these people from my past picking at me, like buzzards who can sense the meal is the
death inside I hear every regret, barbed wire grows from a seed and pours
through my mouth at last the world would not change if I were dead, but in my head I cannot fight the thought, of all the people whose lives
would be better if they found closure in a suicide letter, knowing it meant
that I had died I hear the support now, kicking me and telling me otherwise the net catching me and telling me reason over lies and I love them, I hear them, while from the corner of my
eyes my own voice is taunting me, a dead child haunting me my capacity for evil is my secret to keep, he warns me when I'm cracking, an animal meant to be in a
cage it's only so long before they start attacking, so take a
pill, go to sleep before your discomfort and disquiet and your madness turns
to rage take a pill, go to sleep the memory of your younger brother is with you still, hold me tight and release your pain into the ether your sister cannot hurt you either, you are forgotten, but you don't have to forget, maybe you
never will you'll see your older brother, and vicarious pride shall
have its fill do not give up, just go to sleep; take a pill. © 2020 EvilhappyReviews
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1 Review Added on June 18, 2020 Last Updated on June 18, 2020 AuthorEvilhappyWaco, TXAboutI'm a garbage person, I live in Texas. I love writing and everything I know about it I learned by doing it on my own. Frequent uploads and majority of work here: https://www.deviantart.com/evilhappy.. more..Writing
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