So In Love/So In Hate

I'm feeling lost

I can't seem to find myself..........

can't breathe......

I'm gasping for some
air.....

choked up.....
....feeling like I'm suffocating inside....

my heart is dead....
from all the "internal bleeding".........

you killed my heart

when
you
left me.........

I said I love,
you told me you loved me too.......

but it was trickery!

How could you be so cruel?

In my eyes......

I was already saying....

"I do"

In my heart......
I loved you!

....before even I knew you.......

In my soul.....
....you were the better half of me....

but now you're gone!

my spirit cries....

...I pray that yours
is resting
in peace....

why?!

why did you go........

why did it have to be this way?

why......

....did you make me..

play the fool in your devilish game.......

I didnt want to....

but you left me no choice...

now my heart is torn.....
between being in love
and feeling no remorse

your last words....

you said that you would torture me....

you win......

you left me feeling low,

helpless,

and ANGRY!

I miss you!

but there is no reverse....

Internally....
Im screamin,
and crying out .....

but all that plays is silent words....

I wish we could rewind......

erase the painful memories

freeze frame on it all.....

never do it again......

I know none of this is my fault,

...but secretly I'm the one that I blame.....

in the end....

I question....

did I win.....

or did I lose......

you're gone....

I'm here....

I'm lost....

I'm hurt.....

grieving....
heartbroken......

I'm confused......

this is my right now.....

the one you made me choose....