Untitled - July 25, 2010

It devours me slowly

Little by little

I'm drowning in my tears

Losing control

Desperate to no longer feel

The pain that is swallowing me.

I mask my pain with pain

Scratch by scratch

Scraping my flesh

Until red paints my blackened shell

Cuts so deep

Reaching my soul

But no blade

Can reach the pain inside.

I mask my pain with intoxication 

Sip by sip

Quenching my desire to no longer feel

Clouding my mind

Poisoning my beliefs

Washing away my emotions

But only temporarily

Slipping back into consciousness 

Back into pain.

I mask my pain with indiscretion 

Blunder by blunder

One transgression after another

Going through the motions

But not really experiencing 

Have I actually lost my ability to feel?

It consumes me as all emotions subside

Inch by inch

When all feeling is gone

My body as crippled as my mind; paralyzed

Now a lost cause

My soul lost as well

Finally numb.

Reviews

[aj milton]

This is quite compelling, but sad and somewhat dark. Alluding to depression and self harm and no light at the end of the tunnel.

[EvaMackenzie]

There is always a light at the end, just some people choose not to see it. Thanks for being concerned, though! :)