Push and pull

Still need a long way to go

I have thrown away my needs to gather all your wants
Stayed with you through your ups and downs
Giving it my all to please you, to love you
Was it too much to pour all my feelings to you?

Bad mouthing, Breaking, burnt, cut, falling into chaos I endured it all
I am in a state full of numbness to what one would call pain
Even with everything that I currently have I feel empty
Should I be okay with being thrown away after all that I did?

I am packing all my needs to go on a journey
To find a place I could call my own
I am leaving all the hurtful but will take the lessons with me
Reinvent oneself to be someone I can be proud of

You reached for my hand trying to stop me
Why now? I cannot create reason to stay
Attention and affection from you is no longer my desire
The numbness and pain that made me feel empty shall vanish

Regrets shall not fill up the remaining of my cup
The desire to move forward and be free, I shall find
Now pushing away my worries to pull in happiness
May the coming days be filled with laughter and smiles

Reviews

[Davidgeo]

That opening line is the best opening line I've read here in the past 5 years.

No cow s**t... that's good s**t my friend.

[Wild Rose]

Oh what a place to be
Sounds like you are midway between what you had become
As if you are looking to find a new way of life / A new you

[Wild Rose]

Machine posted this too early
I am on that journey (Again)
and attempting to bring my partner with me