Christie Road

He pulls me closer to him, stroking my hair and whispering, "Oh, Christie, don't cry. What wrong?" 

"Everything, I hate my life so much. I just want it to stop." I sob into his chest. 

"Christie, do you realize what you just said?" he asks, rubbing my back. 

"Yeah, I do. Why can't it just end?" I cry and Jedediah hugs me tighter. 

"Love, what's so bad that makes you want that?" he asks and looks him in the eyes. 

"Everything. I'm an alcoholic, I'm addicted to four different drugs, my foster father rapes me, I'm cheating on Alec with you, I sleep with an average of six guys a week, and I just can't do this anymore" I sob, covering my face with my hands. 

"What?" Jedediah asks, and pulls my hands away from my face, so he can look me in the eyes. 

"I'm addicted to cocaine, ecstasy, methaphetamine, marijuana, and alcohol. I sleep with my weed and meth dealers for the drugs and work as a prostitute  for the money for the ecstasy pills and cocaine. I've already had three miscarriages because of the drugs I've been doing and got an abortion. My foster dad sexually abuses me and I love you, but I can't break up with Alec and then date his best friend. I just wanna die" I cry, then cover my face again. 

"Oh, Christie, I love you. Okay? No matter what happens" he says and lays a gentle kiss on my lips. Jedediah wipes the tears from my face and hugs me tighter. Things have never this bad before, I just want to die. Jedediah is the only reason I'm still here. I love him so much, but I don't know how much longer I'll be able to do this. I stop crying and start to drift off. As I fall asleep I hear Jedediah whisper, "Christie, I love you so much. Please don't forget that" and then he kisses my head. I love you, too. Please don't you forget that.