As The Cycle Ends

About a breakup im currently going through, where the majority of the problems were my doing.

As I think to myself,
No, don't leave him,
Yes, you hurt him,
But he didn't push you away all those times, after you did all those things

As I cry onto my pillow,
No, I don't want to run,
Yes, it will be better for us,
But the searing pain I get in my chest as I begin to pack my things stings

As I whisper to myself,
No, you didn't think to stop,
Yes, of course you knew better,
But you kept going even after your mind began screaming at you to cease

As I grip my arms tight,
No, the pain doesn't bother me,
Yes, I should feel it but I can't,
But that is because I have caused so much pain to everybody and everything I meet

As I scream to myself,
No, you can't take this back,
Yes, it will hurt you like hell,
But one day you will realize you did this for him, not you

As I hold my head in my hands,
No, this will not be easy,
Yes, this is going to kill me,
But I have to accept the fact that after all the delays, it's finally through

Author's Note

Intended to be structured, and nothing is supposed to rhyme except the last words of the longest lines.