I Remember Everything, Dear Ryan

I wanted to write a poem about a man standing over a grave of his dead lover, so here we go...

Two years ago

Was it all just too much to handle then?

The drugs?

The w****s?

The beer?

Was it all just too much?

 

I remember when you came home that night

No shirt and bloodstains on the denim jeans I bought you the other day

The smell of alchohol burnt on your tongue

Exhausting breath you just couldn't hold onto

 

I remember you trying to talk normally

Your legs too weak to even stand

And I had to get underneath you

So you didn't hit your head on the coffee table on your way down

 

Yes, I know

 

I remember you saying,

"I love you, sweetie." And you would say it with a slight chuckle

Your breath wreaked of dried semen

 

I remember telling myself

"It's not worth it. Tell him it's over."

I loved you

But I also loathed you

 

I remember setting you on the couch

With the greatest of ease

I remember telling you I'll be right back

A frown trying to hide beneath a smile

I remember grabbing the gun underneath the pillow on the bed

The bed that we once shared together

And I remember coming back to you

And putting the gun up to your chest

 

You tortured me for too long

You made me feel like s*** while you went off partying

You made me cry every night and hope you would return

You forced me to change myself so I could be the man you wanted

You told me I was special before you went off with a group of w****s

 

You made me kill you

 

So I am here

Standing above your grave

 

No smile

No frown

No emotion

No more life

Cops surround me and a SWAT team is ready to fire

 

Dear Ryan,

Why couldn't you just love me like I loved you

Author's Note

Yes, this does contain a homosexual relationship. If you don't like it, just please don't leave me any nasty comments. I really don't want to hear you say how much you hate gay people cause I don't care.

Reviews

[timmmmmmsardga]

It flows well. Good job!

[thelauraslate]

oohhh, i love this. You managed to tell a story in surprisingly few lines. I was right there with you.

[Ariel Olivia]

This gave me chills in a good way, like I could almost put myself there. I love the detail, you're a really great writer.

[kayBiE]

love it a lot everything about it. you are a very good writer