Admired from afar: Part II

Crappy day :(

Dear love,

Okay, I don't even know why I'm doing this?
Maybe because I'm stupid?
Maybe because I'm desperate?
Whatever reason:
I need to get this off my chest
Literally, I feel I'm being eaten alive
So I just wanted to say
I love you.

I''m sorry I can't say it up to you in person
I just don't have the guts
I'm also told to never sell myself short
But it's obvious that we can never be together.

I mean look!
I'm a younger than you
New, small, unknown
And you are Mr. Wonderful
You are beautiful
Strong
Kind
Funny
Everything any man wanted

I noticed you cut your hair
It looks nice!
Just when I thought you couldn't be any more lovelier
But of course I didn't tell you
I didn't want to jeopardize anything

I'm just not like that
I'm just not that
I'll try but it'll never work
We're like a forbidden love
Like this book I put my note in
It's my favorite:
A daring quest to win a forbidden love

I needed to write this down
Pathetic right?
Here's me crying over some guy who probably doesn't even know
I've realized the truth that we can't be.

You know the girl, in your picture.
She's really pretty!
I really think you should date her!
I'm okay if you don't really care about
Or maybe if you do
But I need to get over this

I really don't expect you to find this note
In my favorite book, in this library.
There's only a slight chance of that happening
One in a million I guess

If you find this
Burn it, throw it, keep it,
Whatever
I had to vent some how

So here's this pathetic writing in this book.
I didn't even put your name because I'm that much of a wimp
It's kinda ironic thinking you, the boy I'm talking about, would find this

Good luck and forget everything I've said
Love, Sincerely,

Me

Author's Note

bleh! this tastes bad