"Screaming"

I'm screaming but no one can hear my silent screams.
I'm in so much pain I wear It under my jeans.
The darkness has come back an is stronger then ever.
I thought it was gone and things would finally get better.
But what a fool I was to think that would be true.
The numbness is taking over if they only knew.
Nobody cares all they wanna do is hurt me and lie.
They don't know how it feels to just wanna f****n die.
If it wasn't for what I hold dear I I wouldn't think twice.
I been suffering for too long in this hell of a life.
Maybe I am disturbed and my words and thoughts are twisted.
But at least I'm honest and I admit it.
I wish I was like most girls carefree and naive to life.
They get partners and have babies an become a wife.
They don't have demons that watch them as the sleep.
Or worry about getting carried away an cutting too deep.
I just hope that some people wont forget me when I r.I.p.
An that they know I wasnt a coward I just wanted to be free.

Author's Note

Ignore grammar.