Good-bye

 

Good-bye

by

Peter Green

How do I say 'good-bye' when I've never said 'hello'?

I am pulled from my reality to a fantasy

Back and forth at the speed of light,

To and fro

I see her shape, I hear her voice, I feel her touch

As she fixes my mind

limbers my body

soothes my soul

With each carress I fall deeper, faster, harder

I do not brace for the fall

My body tumbles back to hard ground

Back to my reality

She waves and I wave back

She smiles and I smile back

'Goodbye'

I whisper longing for her taste

Inside of this shell I am dying, slowly, painfully

Each time she speaks, not of me but of someone else

Someone else in her heart she longs for

Does she not see me?

As I stand on the outside of her life

Waving

'Hello' I must say, but I cannot shape the word

Is the strength within my soul, my body, my tissue of life

Is this strength enough to withstand, to resist

The rejection again?

Alone in the darkness, in the gloom

As if a cave

I stumble across the rocks, all has gone black

I slip on the wet surface, my knees break, my fingers crack

Sharp razor rocks, smashing bones

She stands before me in my minds eye

Naked, stripped down, her head hangs down

Hands hide soft warm breasts

I splay on the boulders scrambling for the light

Slivers of light I cannot find

Am I dying?

Is this my death?

I smell her soft raspberry breath

Hello? Are you there? Poodles...are you there?

I stand, quivering on the rocks, feet slipping

I reach out

Our hands touch

Sweetlet? Is that you?

Palm to palm, we move closer, her smooth body glows

Red in the darkness

Poodles, I am lost

She whispers in my ear

I cannot find my way back

Back to my life, back to my love

She trembles, I touch her face, tears trickle

Like water across the rocks

If the light shone, her face would sparkle, it would dance

Reflecting back her light, her love

I take her hand

We cascade across the rocky terrain

Stumbling, twisting ankles

On hands and knees, through crevices and cracks

Hands and knees bloody, sweat mixing with blood

I taste the salty blood, flowing across my lips

Then

A pin of light on a smooth rock

We follow the light as it glows stronger, more mighty

I push a boulder, I push a rock, light expands

We shield our eyes

The silhouette of a man moves, closer

A hand

Into the cavern

She is pulled from the dark damp prison

my prison

They hold, they kiss, he soothes, her head tilts back, she smiles

Luscious curves shimmer with raw sweat

Black blood and grimy rock dust mix to a paste

Through wet satin strands

Blue eyes search

Search for me

I wave

She fades into the light

I turn and recede into the cave, to the darkness, to my life

...Goodbye...

Peter Green, August 2010