I'll be going for a while

Love you all, I'll be back

Dear friends and readers,

I have decided to check-in to a psychiatric hospital. So, I won't have internet access for at least a month. Please keep writing. I will come and check this website as soon I am released. 

As some of you know my mental health is rather frail, and I have been doing my best to keep my head above water. But I, or rather my sister, believe that I need to spend time in the ICU. The food is bad, I don't really like doctors, and going to bed at nine isn't my thing. However, this is (possibly) a matter of life and death. 

I am okay as of writing now. Actually, I have been numb rather than depressed these past few months. Reading your poetry and stories was the only time I really *felt* anything. I mean this, reading your words have kept me going. But while art is healing, it's not a cure. I need to be institutionalised, at least for a while. 

This was written in two minutes so I hope I didn't say anything to put you off. Let's meet again. My comments will be all over your posts in short time.

Bon voyage!

Ern. 

Edit: thanks for all the love guys! i will be missing you. i just uploaded the rest of my poetry series blue skies in Berlin please take your time going through them for i might not post for a while. 

Author's Note

what did the Irishman say when he couldn't find his tractor?
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where's my tractor?
it's an old joke.

Reviews

[carl]

You will be missed please know that - good thoughts and prayers sent your way - carl

[Beren]

Hey, you re one of the kindest and caring person I've met online. Your mental health is above anything, and you are a wonderful soul.we'll be here waiting for you-and when you come back we will talk about all of these, I am really grateful to meet you.
We'll be always here! Take care my friend!

[Stella Armour]

By the time you read all these lovely messages hopefully you will be feeling better Ern.

The friends we make through poetry are very special friends as you know ...
We all look forward to your return .

Stella

[Desert Knave]

Take care of yourself. ~Jim

[Soren]

My heart and best wishes are with you my friend and am anxiously awaiting your return. Wishing you the best and that your treatment only aids and not hampers your wonderous talent as a poet.

[laika]

i'm new to this site, so i have not read any of your works, having clicked on this as the most recent publication after coming across your profile. but i do not need to have yet connected with you or your work to wish you peace, friend. i know you will recover and heal, and come back to all the love in this comment section and feel like a soul refreshed. godspeed.

[Sami Khalil]

Speedy recovery to health, wealth and wisdom shared.
I wish you the best for you are a genuine friend not like a lot of fakes on this site.
Stay strong and grateful for life.

[emmajoygreen]

You'll be missed as both friend and poet, sir. Yet, you and we know with both heart and spirit that you'll be here with us until you're welcomed back with open arms. Meantime, wishing you everything you wish for yourself in the shortest time possible. Come back soon, Ern, if only to offer old jokes!

[Michael Sun Bear]

Or maybe he said “Where the hell’s my jar!?” Oh Ern, man, I am so sorry. I so quickly came to feel such a strong bond with you and I may, repeat may, have a pretty good understanding of your current suffering. I hope that, unlike here in the Seattle area, you won’t have to wait days or even weeks for a bed. I will daily say a prayer and perform a spiritual act to promote your healing. Just as you know, I realize complete cures, complete refiguring of one’s DNA is very rare. But with help, we endure. And if ever you could no longer endure, I would never judge you. Let me add, anything you could say or write would never put me off. No matter how torn your heart, how frantic your mind, how despairing your soul, how bloody and bleeding, I would embrace you in love, brother.

[D. Mansfield]

Amen, couldn't have said it better, what a great man!

[Eilis]

Hey, Ern. Sad to read this but I am glad you have support and will be getting the help you need. We will all miss your presence and enthusiasm, and will be glad for your return. Take care