I'll be going for a while

Love you all, I'll be back

Dear friends and readers,

I have decided to check-in to a psychiatric hospital. So, I won't have internet access for at least a month. Please keep writing. I will come and check this website as soon I am released. 

As some of you know my mental health is rather frail, and I have been doing my best to keep my head above water. But I, or rather my sister, believe that I need to spend time in the ICU. The food is bad, I don't really like doctors, and going to bed at nine isn't my thing. However, this is (possibly) a matter of life and death. 

I am okay as of writing now. Actually, I have been numb rather than depressed these past few months. Reading your poetry and stories was the only time I really *felt* anything. I mean this, reading your words have kept me going. But while art is healing, it's not a cure. I need to be institutionalised, at least for a while. 

This was written in two minutes so I hope I didn't say anything to put you off. Let's meet again. My comments will be all over your posts in short time.

Bon voyage!

Ern. 

Edit: thanks for all the love guys! i will be missing you. i just uploaded the rest of my poetry series blue skies in Berlin please take your time going through them for i might not post for a while. 

Author's Note

what did the Irishman say when he couldn't find his tractor?
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where's my tractor?
it's an old joke.

Reviews

[laika]

i'm new to this site, so i have not read any of your works, having clicked on this as the most recent publication after coming across your profile. but i do not need to have yet connected with you or your work to wish you peace, friend. i know you will recover and heal, and come back to all the love in this comment section and feel like a soul refreshed. godspeed.

[Sami Khalil]

Speedy recovery to health, wealth and wisdom shared.
I wish you the best for you are a genuine friend not like a lot of fakes on this site.
Stay strong and grateful for life.

[emmajoygreen]

You'll be missed as both friend and poet, sir. Yet, you and we know with heart and spirit that you'll be here with all friends and would-be friends as soon as great care and the necessary - but not too long time, sends you back to your home from home. Come back soon, Ern, if only to offer old jokes!

[Michael Sun Bear]

Or maybe he said “Where the hell’s my jar!?” Oh Ern, man, I am so sorry. I so quickly came to feel such a strong bond with you and I may, repeat may, have a pretty good understanding of your current suffering. I hope that, unlike here in the Seattle area, you won’t have to wait days or even weeks for a bed. I will daily say a prayer and perform a spiritual act to promote your healing. Just as you know, I realize complete cures, complete refiguring of one’s DNA is very rare. But with help, we endure. And if ever you could no longer endure, I would never judge you. Let me add, anything you could say or write would never put me off. No matter how torn your heart, how frantic your mind, how despairing your soul, how bloody and bleeding, I would embrace you in love, brother.

[D. Mansfield]

Amen, couldn't have said it better, what a great man!

[Eilis]

Hey, Ern. Sad to read this but I am glad you have support and will be getting the help you need. We will all miss your presence and enthusiasm, and will be glad for your return. Take care

[Green]

It's always sad to see a member leave us, but hopefully it is only for a short time and then you'll be back with us. I'll miss seeing your username pop up on the screen, it's become something I've gotten rather used to.

[Samuel Dickens]

I offer you my best wishes and hope for a speedy recovery.

[Chris Shaw]

Dear Ern, my thoughts are with you. Get well soon and return to us. We will all be waiting for you. All good wishes 🪻

Chris

[Ken e Bujold]

Stay strong, and heal thyself my friend. And rest assured, while you do, your many friends will compose the poems you crave. Hurry back to read

ken

[andrew mitchell]

Hope all goes well Ern. All the best.