Dear man in Tana,A Story by ErikaTo the man in
Tana…funny…I don’t have words. Okay…to the man in Tana who, at the moment,
caused a clump to form in my throat and tears to flow, and to the memory of
whom causes me to now stare blankly down in front of me, and notice that my
heart is beating faster and my teeth are clenched: I am sorry. Eventually, I gave a bottle of water that others put
next to you. And to what use? You couldn’t even open your eyes. That we might
feel we contributed? That we might feel good about ourselves? There is the voice that says: At least you have
compassion. At least you did something. And there is the voice that says: It is to no use.
Besides, we are not allowed to give. …(long pause)… Frustration builds up. Anger builds up. Hopelessness
builds up…Sadness builds up. Okay, you get it…there is a build up. Either it is released and channeled in a good way or a
bad way or not at all. Standing there, three meters from you, for an
unbearable amount of time, and just having to wait until our leader showed up
from out of the office, I had enough time to observe, ponder things, ha, and
try to keep my composure " I was a face of shock and horror (a little
embarrassed even that I was not able to keep the tears in). There are times when I cry out to God. He loves that
we come to him boldly and honestly. There have been times when " and I hate to
admit it " in my humanness I can help but swear loudly inside of me. There are
times of both. I HATE - and hate is a strong word - I HATE being a
bystander. How can we accept societies where no one does
anything? How can we accept societies where young children have
to step around you and see you laying there, and then be dragged along by their
mothers? How can we accept societies where a man is paid by
some official from the office to organize how you will be “removed”. And I’m
sorry, but I don’t think caring for you and rushing you off to the hospital was
the biggest priority. Okay, this last part about being paid for “dealing
with” you is only a guess, but it makes sense from my observations. Now, notice how I didn’t use the word “why”? I am sure
you also know why I didn’t use “why”. This world is broken. It is in tears. It
is separated from its lifeline whose name is Christ. Back to you. I thought then and I have thought since:
What is your story? Do you have a family? Where did you live? What were you
aware of as people stepped around you, rolled you to your side, put a bottle of
water in your arms, stared at you, ignored you, and eventually…moved you? Were
you in pain? Were you thinking anything? If you could, what would be your
biggest wish for that very moment? And I wonder, how many people knew your
name? Maybe, if you hear me say what I am saying you would
laugh. Maybe you were just drunk or something, but from your appearance I do
not believe that is the case. Later in the day, when we passed by the same place,
you were not there. Sorry if I’m thinking the worst of the world now, and
I’m sorry if I’m making any wounds you
have (point out at audience) worse, but I believe we saw a man dying right
in front of us on the ground. I believe he left without a name, and I don’t
believe that is okay. Everyone deserves
a name. © 2016 Erika |
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Added on December 14, 2016 Last Updated on December 14, 2016 Tags: sorry, asking forgiveness, guilt, expression, justice, oppression, power, name, dignity, fighting, bystander AuthorErikaNorwayAboutI am a student and a dreamer, an introvert, and now stepping out of my comfort zone and into the unknown world of sharing my thoughts through poetry and writing. more..Writing
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