Have You Seen My Home?A Poem by ErikaI’m searching for my home. Barefoot, I walk amongst the path of
stones, The one, as a child, I had made with my
heart still in the making, Muscles strained; feet sore; I don’t know which way I’m going. Enveloped in the arms of the romantic wind, Leaving kiss-like shivers across my skin, I reach for the jacket Mom had bought me in
a hurry, I curse its impossibility to fit my body. Mom had told me objects don’t shrink or
grow, The same way time can’t be fast nor slow, Yet, I glance down to the smallness of the
sweater I hold And remember the way it used to shelter my
body from the cold Mom said I wouldn’t be a kid forever That life goes by like a gray cloud and bad
weather But Mom didn’t say that childhood was meant
to be cradled Like my father coddled the little girl I
was, uncertain yet nestled. I’m searching for my home. At three in the morning, I roam Around the streets I used to chant Laughing
in ways that adults can’t I stand before the house in which I grew
up. Looking for a home but I see none. My house is empty But not in the way you think it might be My house is filled with furniture we have
yet to replace And the delicate center piece my mom made
with lace Yet the fridge once decorated with
watercolor and colored pencil artwork Has now grown obnoxious with its bank
statements and important meeting dates for work, The bedroom walls once painted in a shade
of pink I had chosen Now, covered in white, had been forgotten, Hidden from the eyes of maturing souls My childhood has already started to mold. Its
funny, is it not? We’ve all been caught. Running from the monsters under our bed To running from the demons in our head. We’re searching for our homes, are we not? And I’m not talking about the piece of land
our parents bought. The roof over our heads or the foundation
on which was built four walls I’m talking about the smell of home that
you can’t find nowhere else, Not even in the newest collection of Coco Chanel, I’m talking about your mother’s cooking For the smell, the taste, the texture,
you’ve be longing Because nothing tastes better than the comfort and the sense of belonging of home, But do you know where is home? Have you lost it? In your locker, maybe in your coat pockets? Has it run away? Unless you were the one who decided not to
stay? Blindly walking the other way? Have you hurt it? Destroyed it? Burnt it to the ground? Released the hounds? You may not have wanted to hold a gun But what can you do the war had already
begun? I’m searching for my home. I’m searching for a home, A jacket to keep me warm. I’m searching for my childhood There are missing signs around the
neighbourhood, I’m searching for the child I’ve been, The child I am within Her name is Happy and she’s a good kid. It wasn’t her decision to be killed. © 2024 ErikaFeatured Review
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