Dumb.

It's been seven months, you and her,

and you tell me that it was just lame.

You've been a player, playing games.

And I thought the rock inside you came to life,

and you weren't to be blamed.

And maybe I'm the one for life.

Blaming circumstances and chances,

humiliating sense and vision.

Being a loyal devotee,

Being humble, perhaps insane.

And I was just a plain Jane,

maybe simplicity enchanted your dark heart.

But the old saying, you were just collecting your jar of hearts.

And I thought mine was the one, you chose to house inside.

I, being a little dumb chose lovely hurt over solitude,

wish had been too dumb to choose.

Now, what do I believe in?

Don't know if I've recovered from stupidity yet.

Got no God to believe in,

which one of them would favor stupidity?

Got no reasons to hold on,

got no shame to give up.

Maybe it's easy for you,

you never said you would die.

Don't ask me one more time to give love a try.

Divine my heart, purifies a certain amount of evil,

A little more makes it a hell, to torment me.

I don't know myself any more,

I gave all the trust I had to you.

There's no trust, to trust myself.

Maybe life will find someone who shares some of his with me,

life always finds a way.

But I would like it very much

if I proved to be dumb this time,

And trust you with the game again.

-February 27,2013

6:17 P.M

Reviews

[quinfinn]

we can never go home anymore....once the thing is done we must let it lie lest we dig up old bones which will injure and haunt us. this is a very introspective and sad piece and i felt it right to my very core. you are capable of such a rich and deep love and yet, you are unable to give it to the one who has your heart. i hate this story, but i love the way you have written it.....superb, utterly beautiful.

[Mehak Mushtaq]

Thank you so much Quin.

[quinfinn]

welcome!

[KeelyJane]

At your age one would expect you to be writing about sunshine and butterflies. You amaze me with your grasp of what is beyond the daydream. Nice work.

[Mehak Mushtaq]

Thank you Keely.

[KAOlmsted]

That moment when you fully realize just how stupid you've been...it's pretty tough. This is a great piece; I enjoyed it a lot.

[Mehak Mushtaq]

Thankyou.

[khalid]

very nicely penned...i love it..

[Mehak Mushtaq]

Thank you.

[khalid]

welcome

[James William Dyer]

Every time a heart breaks, an angel loses its wings...and fall from heaven. I like your poem, my only criticism being that it would benefit from some visual imagery. The emotions were so sincere, and came across well. But you could make them sharper with some imagery for the reader, and possibly some brevity.

[quinfinn]

James, she is barely 16 years old....she has immense talent, she will learn imagery and so much more...look at where she is at such a tender age....awesome is coming..trust me!

[Mehak Mushtaq]

Thank you Quin. I hope I'll stand up to your expectations. :)
And thank you too, James. I'll consider that and try to work on it.

[Frieda P]

You're too young to be this disillusioned yet, not dumb, just human. We feel stupid when we give our heart to another so wholly and then it doesn't work, but is there any other way to love...dumb is the heart, we have no control over who we fall in love with. Sad but lovely read.

[Mehak Mushtaq]

Thank you Frieda.

[Jack...]

Oh so tempting to be dumb, just once more, and then after that I may derive a different name for myself.

Be strong...nice write Mehak.

[Mehak Mushtaq]

Thank you Jack

[Richard Man]

Perri sang "Jar of hearts".... a brilliant song but the phrase is not an old phrase or saying it's a damn good lyric.

[Mehak Mushtaq]

One of my favorite songs. I know sir. :) Just my way of putting it in the poem.

[Zahra]

Very nicely written.

[Mehak Mushtaq]

Thank you.

[The Nude Writer]

Wonderful writing! :) I always get so lost in your words.. quite wonderful :)

[Mehak Mushtaq]

Thank you. :)