Germantown

This was in the midst of my heroin addiction. I was living out of an abandoned house in North Philadelphia. Had no one but myself and owned nothing but the trash bag of clothes over my shoulder.

       My greatest decision was to give my heart to nobody, but it resulted in an amazing loneliness. I created a safe haven. A comfortable place in my head, where words couldn't reach and prying eyes could never see. But with the gain of comfort, there came a sudden, unexpected loss of understanding.

       I began to look for answers in places I had never dreamed existed, places that only exist in the far-off corners of my mind. This was the part where I began to question my own sanity. I know there is no end to this. Yet it is all I strive for.

Author's Note

Don't hold back. Will improve if necessary.

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[Phill Oz O'fee]

I spent ten years working with individuals with substance and alcohol abuse issues - to my humility, I discovered, it was the issue not the person that needed addressing. I read your piece with great affinity and felt every word you wrote. Hope you don't mind but I took your write and rewrote as follows - to add strength and structure:

My greatest resolution
Was to give my heart to no one
But it resulted in amazing loneliness
And I created a safe haven.
A comfortable place in my head
Where words could not reach
Those prying eyes could never see
Thus with this gain of comfort
Came an unexpected loss of understanding
A beginning to look for answers
In spaces I had never dreamed existed
Places I thought were hidden.
In the far-off corners of my mind
This was the time where I began
To question my own sanity
I know there is no end to this
Yet it is all I seem to strive for.

Hope you don't mind ... :-)