"Always and Forever"

Do you even have a clue?

The words that people say to you.

People like me.

We’re frauds.

Liars.

We can barely tell ourselves the truth.

That it was possible for us.

To ever love someone.

Because we were never meant for love.

So many things I think about.

How I value being alone.

And never having children.

But you had no idea.

I always swore off men.

Never wanted to deal with one.

Until I met him.

He was my best friend.

How cruel.

For him to show up and disappear as he pleases.

But after a bit.

I stopped caring.

Yet I realize.

How pathetic it truly is.

How I am merely at his beck and call.

I hate it.

I can’t stand it.

How he acts.

What he says.

And yet I can’t let him go.

I need him gone.

For good.

But every single time I try.

He needs me again.

And again.

and again..

I hate all of this so much.

I can’t get away.

And I was so happy.

BUT HE KEEPS COMING BACK!

And yet I miss him.

How close we were.

But I know better.

He should stay far away.

With me,

Happiness fades.

“Always and forever.”