There's a Reason As To Why I Am Me

There's a Reason As To Why I Am Me

A Poem by Ennay

There’s a reason why I don’t let people touch me.

There’s a reason why I never let people hold me.

There’s a reason why I never let people watch what I’m doing over my shoulder.

There’s a reason why I’m uncomfortable sharing a bed with my family.

There’s a reason why I’ve never let anyone kiss me.

There’s a reason why I’ve never trusted anyone enough.


My past ruined me.

Anytime that I wanted to get close to somebody.


It never lasts.


Because I couldn’t trust them.

Because of how scared I get.


That panicked feeling in your chest when you meet with them.

To the point that your hands begin to shake.

Then they see you.


But they don’t want you.

They want what you can offer.


And that’s why I thought that I shouldn’t love someone.

For the longest time.

I had given up.


Sure I had people that I would admire.

From a distance.

But I never wanted anything more from them.

I was okay with being alone.


Though silently, we all know that nobody would be okay with that.


I just..


I hope there's some part of me that wasn’t ruined.

© 2024 Ennay


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Added on December 9, 2024
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Ennay
Ennay

Midland, NC



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