By Now

By Now

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I heard your name today.

Not one that I hear often.

I thought I’d be okay.

Until I saw your face.

I didn’t feel anything.

Nothing, truly.

I had let go a long time ago.

But I couldn’t help but remember the way you watched me.

It was just a habit.

An old habit of looking for each other.

In all of the places where we both knew we would be.

But I’ve moved on.

I know I have.

Because that feeling of letting you go.

It had faded.

And that’s when I realized that I was never in love with you.

And you never loved me either.

I didn’t get that warm swelling in my chest when I was with you.

My heart never skipped a beat at any compliments you gave me.

You didn’t really care about how my day was.

And you never did the bare minimum by sending me sweet messages from morning-to-night

You never did anything for me.

And that is why my heart never has been..

And never will be..

Yours.

My heart belongs to someone else.

You lost your chance when you cut the white string.

Never allowing it to ever turn red.

So in the future, if you ever ask of me.

I will force you to accept this. 

You may look reality in the eye and deny it.

But you never deserved me.

And when I walked away, that was when it hit you.

You weren’t truly over me, by now.

Were you?

I only have one thing to say to that.

I don’t care.