Where You Are

Where You Are

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I find myself looking forward to the start of each day.

Dreading the end of each night.

Find myself watching the sunrise.

Knowing that someone else also watches it.

I find myself going to bed with a smile.

The same smile as I check my messages between classes during my day.

Ideas forming.

Thoughts of traveling and doing things we have never done before.

As if they could really happen.

As if they will happen.

But how could you be so sure?

How could you plan for a future that doesn’t exist?

Promises such as seeing one of my performances.

Or watching one of these movies.

Together.

But once again.. 

How are you so sure of yourself?

Or are they merely thoughts?

Ones that may never reappear again?

That’s why I haven’t sent the bracelet.

Because how could it be so simple?

How is it so easy to assume that things will end up a certain way?

And why can’t I think that way?

What is it that I’m missing?

What is it that I need to see, do, or hear?

Yet even here as I fall apart in thought.

I just wanna be where you are.

Or is that all it is?

A thought.