Torn

A Poem by Marissa

Poem about old love that is dying yet won't die

Torn up and bleeding out
Who do I choose
So long, gouging out my own eyes, my soul
Its time to leave
Time to pass
Love seemed so blissful
But with my eyes gone, all I missed
So used to the old
New doesn't seem a possibility
To leave this creature
An impossible task
Pulsating feelings longing for new
The strength it takes to not fantasize
Feeling so wretched, so dirty
Love seems to be a trick of the mind
To throw you off guard when you least expect such a thing
Something you cannot simply control anymore
Screaming out, lashing pain
Searching for any way out
There is not an easy road this time
Stuck in the past though it disappeared long ago
So confusing
No one wants you but at the same time they all do
Going insane day to day
It's all the new rage
Such a factious thing
Not caring or caring too much
Loosing control
It has to end
But how its already too far in, too deep
Don't have the heart to break someone else's
So destiny prevails
Loosing sight of the world
A little whole to crawl into comes into play
Hiding your feelings and showing old ones that do not exist but on a different plane
It has to be done, too far in
Death not an option
But in the end nothing is