My Love, My World

Sometimes fear can make us distort our perception into the negativity of our past, so much so that we don't give reality the chance it deserves.

My love
My love
My heart does swell
At the thought of you
Your presence one of constant delight
A consistency so foreign to your own life
And the same stranger to mine
You are, my calm.
Steady and true and light.
It's why my soul is fixated
Unable to turn its gaze
So delighted at the brilliance before it

And sometimes
When im with you
I get stuck far into the future
And forget my present existence
Living in a land of idealized love
Without realistic restrictions
But then, I see
That those things don't even matter
And that as long as I'm with you
I can smile.

And sometimes
It hurts so much
Not to be without you, well, yes that too,
But to think of how that could mean
We aren't healthy, that I'm dependent
And thats bad.
Such a terrifying thought
As I could never see it before.

But sometimes
It dawns on me
That toxicity is an affect
And if I can laugh and cry in the same day
And do both with you or call you
And you'll be there for me
That how could this be wrong...
And then, I think
That i don't cry because
I'm missing you
Well yes.. that too..
And I don't cry because
I'm filled with sadness
Okay... that too
But, really, I'm crying
Because of you absence
And the realization that you..
Make me so happy that I forget that I'm sad.

My love.
My love.
You are my light.
And like a ship set to sail
I do depend on you
But am not dependent.
And like narcotics
My very blood craves you
But are not toxic.
My love.

My love
You are moon light and sun rise
And the warmth and the breeze
You are laughter and tears
Heartache and rejoicement.
You are my past
For which I look unto to grow
You are my present
For which I cling to to remain grounded
You are my future
For which I gaze upon and reach up tall

You are my world.
And it is a beautiful world, indeed.

11/18/2020