Dear Whoever...

Dear whoever is willing to read,

Life is tough for me, I don't understand much. I'm a loner with no friends. I'm emo. I have gray eyes, long Carmel brown hair, and I'm 5'8"

I've hit a few rough patches in this thing we call "life". You see I had things done to me; unspeakable things. You see a guy, I won't say who, did things to me....things that hurt....things that a girl can't erase from her memory. No matter how hard I try....I can't help but remember EVERYTHING perfectly...every move...every noise...everything from the creaking of the door...to my tears of pain...

It was a scary moment....but after that things just got worse. I started doing horrible in school....I lost friends because I became depressed and I still am...my parents started to ignore me...I started harming myself with a razor blade....three cuts every night was the normal....but people noticed...and they started making fun of me....they called me names and hated on me...but they knew nothing...they didn't know the things that happened...how scared I was of life....no one knew....

And here I stand today....still alive....but nothing's changed....a guy still had his way with me...and I stil cringe thinking about it...I'm still depressed, but I'm getting better....people still call me names.....and I'm still scared of life....nothing's changed yet...and nothing ever will.

Author's Note

So I guess it's my life expirences right here....please no rude comments...

Reviews

[The Fallen]

Wow, I loved it (:

[*~*Butterfly Kisses*~*]

A powerful in depth write. Believe me, this is more than relateable with me. I can sit here all day and write to you my own personal pains - rape, cheated, abused by selfless people including my own father who killed my mother on my birthday and almost tried to kill me. Its hard to believe coming from someone but eventually the bad stuff begins to fade away, its like a really s****y and brutally long test. Hang in there and keep writing.

[Broken Wings]

Wow that's horrible, and I know I'll get better at some point...thanks for the review

[write4ever]

wow very powerful and well written!! i was an outcast in school so I can definitly relate to this poece!!! beautiful job!!! keep up the good work!!! you are a VERY telented writer!!!!

[Craba]

WOW, such depth and personal. Well expressed emotions.