I pull myself into the worlds of television shows
Because I don’t like my own
I push myself into the worlds of books
Because I can’t stand my own
I create different people within my head
Because to escape my mind I have to make another one
I speak with others far away
Because I wish I was in their life, not mine
I turn up my music really loud
Because I hope that it’ll take me away from here
I make a story within my head
Because mine isn’t interesting enough
I try to get rid of those voices, those thoughts
By distracting myself with different lives that aren’t my own, because I don’t like mine.
oh the life of being vicarious ;) ... so many ways to read this and so many ways to relate ... your poem draws a line for me ..between one pursuing a leisure activity (say reading) for the joy and pleasure of being drawn into it ..getting absorbed as you point out .. and trying to escape something negative in ones world ... (say abuse or illness) even then the escape can be healing .. respite for a moment from the storm .. but escaping for real means some kind of addiction ..or giving over to mental illness of some kind .. danger danger danger ... your poem brings up something important to be talked about says i! the honesty of your poem shines brightly :)
E.
There is always that unsettled feeling we carry of just wanting to escape. Our own reality sometimes forces us to think that the grass is always greener on the other side.....but is it really? Talk my friend...it's a natural solution and coping mechanism.
This is why I originally started writing. I hated my life at the time and just want to escape. As I wrote I knew I could do whatever I want and be whoever I want. It was almost as if my life in the book was the real world and my life was the dream. Great write :)
Running from the self, reality and even hating the self can lead us to seek other avenues to drown the aches and pains. Doubts add another dimension to self misery. An excellent write...:)......
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i'm Daniela, a teenager who lives in the northeastern USA
my profile pic is not me, its Matty Healy
writing and music are a huge part of my life
i like to write poems, stories, and books
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