depressed

hidden under a blanket of

"oh i'm fine" "don't worry"

"I'm ok"

beneath the surface

under that smile

there is something breaking

ready to go out

wearing

a mask of happiness

a costume of contentment

makeup of pretend

lipstick of calm

there are only a few who have laser-eyes

only a little that can see the fake

the faux joy

the faux laughter

the faux happiness

out of all friends

that is how you find out 

who the real ones are

and that

does not seem to help 

and suddenly 

you realize

who are friends

360 degrees around

and who

are only 180

Reviews

[Cara]

ay yo sorry if this is late i havent checked in a while??

okay but i like this a lot okay this is super intense. like i love how you use phrases that everyone uses (like "i'm fine," "don't worry," "i'm okay") because that not only makes it super relatable but also makes the reader realize just how common depression really could be - everyone says it, so is everyone depressed? likely no but ya get what im saying.
at the end too i really like how you describe friends as 360 or 180 degrees - like that was a really clever comparison that i hadn't thought of before and i think it works really well - it makes the reader think about a kind of deeper meaning, in a way, and i really like that.
i also like the repetition of faux; that to me helps emphasize how fake it is - kind of like "fake with fake in another language combined together" level fake - does that make sense? no but i dont know how else to describe it.
yeah so this is fabulous okay thanks bye

[Ma'at]

thankssss friend xx

[Sami Khalil]

Sorry you are feeling that way in these joyous times of the year. A sad one but good write...:).............

[Ma'at]

thank you :)

[Sami Khalil]

You are welcome...:).......

[Rob Santana]

Sad but filled with truth and emotion. I all to familiar with this. I've had long time friends switch on me over night. It happens. As far as wearing a mask of happiness, I have several of my own. Well written.

[Ma'at]

thank you :)

[Laura Lynn]

cool, I have to think about that, I want to know specifically what a friend does who is 360 as opposed to 180, but it's a feeling and I can jive with it

[Ma'at]

what i meant in this context by 360 is someone who is there for all of you and all your feelings and all you've done and all you are, whereas 180 i meant by someone who isn't there for all of you and only hangs around for some of the show, not all of it.

[Laura Lynn]

oh that sucks, yeah my 60 year old elders are there for me 360 it seems like sometimes, I wish it were a lover for me, but I don't get that at present, though I doubt if anyone can really be 360 24/7 for every single year of a person's life, but in your definition I feel it, I believe that it does happen but it's possible that it might not happen for everyone, I don't know but it's worth pondering in the event that one can achieve the 360 both for yourself and others, it's something worth having-giving

[Ma'at]

only 2 of all the friends in real life are 360, which is kinda sad, but I've been dealing with it. a lover who was also that would be nice, but since i hav my whole life ahead of me, i can't really think like that. it definitely is something tho, something that would be nice but i guess we both just hav to appreciate the things we do hav, and that waiting for someone who's there 360 is something we hav to earn

[willweb]

It seems the coming of winter has everyone's spirits down. This was sad and painful to read. I know these things happen, life seems unfair, friends turn their backs, but there is good, it is out there, I know. I really enjoyed this one Daniela, I just wish you didn't have to write it.

[Ma'at]

That is true.
Thank you very much for that, i promise, i will try. Thank you, truly x