Numb

Emotions running high
Slipping away from reality
As each day passes by
Trying to grasp it
It floats away like butterflies
Getting into my mind
Deep and rooted
Something that’s not true
Why do I put myself through it

Would’ve been better off
Such a tough exterior
But yet so tender and soft

Stronger is what I want to be
Weak is what I am
My heart on my sleeve
Earning to be loved
Though love is what I have

What am I missing
My heart so empty
My mind so angry
I don’t deserve what I desire
My bodies aching what I think I require

How can I become a storm
Destroying everything in its path
I don’t want to sit back and cry
Instead I’d rather stand and laugh

Grappling with my emotions
Brains mixing up potions
Making it more complicated than what it is

Wishing I was better
And wondering what I’ve become
My bodies running high
My heart dull and numb