Gone

Feeling weak
So many times I thought I was strong
Now seeing I was wrong
Letting confusing emotions break through me
Suffocation that stops and goes
Waking up and nobody knows
It doesn’t show
My minds so caught up
About to blow

How can’t I love like I should
My emotions are so misunderstood
I feel the pain and it feels bad
I fake the funk to feel glad
I play along to get by
When deep inside
I cry, I cry

What’s wrong with me
If I can’t love you
Then I can’t love no one
If I can’t have you
Then I want no one

Selfish is what I am
A coward is what I’ve become
My bodies in place
Minds on the run
Wanting to escape your touch of the day
Your pulling closer and I’m pulling away
Can’t stand to see the love in your eyes

My heart is crying with dry tears
Is the touch
Or the love I fear
How could that bond we once had disappear
Never would I have thought we would be here
In a place surrounded by so much love
The vessel we share empty with lost love
Too many strings attached to cut
When you hold me close I keep my eyes shut

I truly hope it’s a phase
One that comes and goes quickly
I want to love you so deeply
Deeper than the ocean floor
Higher than the highest cloud
I want to love and I want it to be loud
Love you like I once did

I hope it comes back I truly do
It pains me to have built a life around you
One I can’t escape from
So it seems like a trap
I’m gone for now
Maybe one day I’ll come back


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