This I wish I never Knew

This I wish I never Knew

A Poem by EmyBow

These are the thing I wish to no longer understand.


These feelings, these memories, these nightmares.


I wish I never understood why women stay when the first hit strikes.


I wish I never understood what it was like to be ripped from everything you know.


I wish I never understood how it feels to be the perpetual black sheep.


I wish I never knew how it felt to always be the disappointment.


I wish I never knew how it felt to have the most sacred act turn to hell.


I wish I never knew the touch of a man.


I wish I never knew how it felt to be left behind by every friend you ever had.


I wish I never knew how it feels to be betrayed by every man you ever loved.


I wish I never knew the cold stinging pain of a razor.


I wish I never knew the joy of seeing the blood pouring out.


I wish I never knew what it was like to run away.


I wish I never knew the acceptance of wanting to end your life.


I wish I never knew the face of a friend dying in my arms.


I wish I never knew the sight of loved ones in a casket.


I wish I never knew the desire that leads to betraying the one you love.  


I wish I never knew my parents together.


I wish I never knew the Lord’s name.


I wish I never knew how others actions can decide your life.


I wish I never knew this self deprecating nature of mine.


I wish I never knew the sound of the car crush around you.

I wish I never knew the taste of forty pills.


I wish I never knew the feeling of a rope around my neck.


I wish I never knew love at all.


And some days


I wish I never knew how it felt to live


© 2016 EmyBow


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This is very sad to read. You bring up some terrible things that could easily live in someone's nightmares.

Posted 8 Years Ago


EmyBow

8 Years Ago

Unfortunately I must say this is all things I have personally been through.
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8 Years Ago

I'm sorry to hear that. I wondered about if you had. I thought to myself either she's really good at.. read more

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EmyBow
EmyBow

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I've been writing since I was 5 years old. I have well over 100 journals and have kept everyone of them. I write everything from short stories, poetry and diary entries. Though mostly dark, some of my.. more..

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A Poem by EmyBow