I never meant to lose you

I was watching a movie and a woman lost her baby and it made me want to write this...this is to all the mothers who ever lost a baby from miscarriage...May your baby rest in peace

At first I didn't want you, yes it's mean but it is true
But once it finally hit me I conviced myself I do.
I was scared and I was nervous for what my future would now hold
All I could do is wait and see as new problems would unfold.
I tried not to think about it, didn't want you on my mind
But unfortunately it happened, and you were thought about all the time.
After the first few weeks of denial, I opened up my heart
I told you I was sorry and that I loved you from the start.
A few more weeks passed by and the idea of you I accepted
But just as I was learning to love, my world was intercepted.
A sharp pain in my belly had taken me by surprise
Falling to my knees in pain, I grabbed both of my sides.
I had never felt such pain before, but it's funny, because you see.....
The entire time I cringed in pain, I was worried about you, not me.
It was then I had noticed the blood dripping down my leg
I began to pray for mercy, and to the Lord I started to beg.
The following day the doctors confirmed my most dreaded fear
" I'm sorry I must tell you this, but you've miscarried my dear. "
Sitting there in silence I couldn't cry or smile
My mental state of mind had slipped back into denial.
So this is to my baby, whom I will never see
I never ment to lose you... May you rest in peace

Author's Note

please remember...i am only 14...this did not happen to me...this happens to many women around the world