For Now

(C) E. Edwards, February 2015

For Now

 

The ashes of a dying star,

Pieces pulled and torn apart.

And everything I ever loved,

Never mattered to anyone.

The little girl I keep inside,

Her frustration ties me down.

Unconsciously destroying the things that should have redeemed me.

From time to time, I wonder how I might see the world around me

If I could tear these walls down again...

 

CHORUS:

Maybe for now, I am home.

Maybe for now, I can finally breathe.

I've thought maybe for now, I can turn my back

And hold it in my own two hands.

 

After everywhere I've been,

There's still something I haven't seen.

I still try to cut the ties

But I choke when I try to breathe.

I'd appreciate their time

If they only felt the same.

In between ignorance and heartless tears and shame,

From time to time, I wonder what purpose I have served this place,

But if the marks I left would never fade away…

 

CHORUS

 

How would it feel to find you have yourselves to blame?

And it's too late to save it all?

Is it so easy just to start from where I was?

And who will be there when I'm gone?

 

CHORUS