A New Toxicity

(C) E. Edwards, December 2014

A New Toxicity

 

I number my days, falling away as I go.

I bring myself to life as I swallow it whole.

There’s no greater sickness than no sickness at all.

And I’ve lived for now, for fear I may never move on.

I drink it in while I can.

 

I don’t bleed anymore!

I wait for the sun!

I don’t think anymore!

I wait until I can run!

 

Sleeping away every desperate little thought.

At the end of the day, they mean nothing at all.

There’s no greater sickness than no sickness at all.

The isolation has addicted my broken soul.

I drink it in while I can.

 

I don’t bleed anymore!

I wait for the sun!

I don’t think anymore!

I wait until I can run!

 

Dragged me down into my sorrow,

Drowned me out inside the bottle.

Open my burning mind only to realise

Nobody knows me anymore.

 

The poison that’s hunting me down,

I will always taste it.

Now that I know what it’s like,

I’ll just have to face it.

This new freedom I thought was all mine,

It’s just another matter of time.

Will freedom ever be mine?

 

I don’t sleep anymore!

Banish the sun!

I can’t live anymore!

So banish the sun!

 

Dragged me down into my sorrow,

Drowned me out inside the bottle.

Open my burning mind only to realise

Nobody knows me anymore.

Nobody knows me anymore.

Nobody knows me anymore.