The pain is like a throbbing heat, aching in my chest. I know that I should stop tell him to leave, that I can't do this any-more but I can't, I need him. To say goodbye would be like tearing out half of my heart. He helped me when I was down, picked me up whenever I fell, he helped me to survive when I thought it was all over. Yes he loves me more then I ever could love him, but to think of him leaving is to press my hand down hard onto a bed of nails. I could never love him when my heart is aching for another's embrace but I do love him, in a different way. We are joined together, forever whether we like it or not, our paths have crossed, our destinies aligned, we need each other, though I probably need him more then he needs me, but either way it doesn't matter. We understand each other better than any other person in the world. The trust and compassion we have for one another can never be replaced. I close my eyes, try to imagine him with someone else, lips touching, arms wrapped around one another, but I cant. My whole person shies away from the idea of him belonging to anyone but me. I need him and I can never forget that.