Chapter 14

          It was around three in the morning on Wednesday. I was wearing black stripped shorts with a pink tank top. I was so tired, but I had to pack. I have been up packing for god only knows how many hours. Packing clothes, and memories into boxes that would soon be in Berlin, Germany.

          I sat on my floor and bent over and started to grab stuff from out under my bed. There was stuff under there I didn't even know I had for the past two years. I pulled out a old shoe box. Maybe it was a pair of shoes I never wore? Nope, that wasn't it.

I opened the box and found out it was a box full of pictures of Chance, Andy and I. This was when I was thirteen. When we were thirteen. I don't even remember putting the box under my bed. I have been looking for it for a while now.

          I sat up and took out a picture of us when we went trick-or-treating for Halloween. Chance dressed up as Robin, I dressed up as a dead bride, and Andy dressed up as Batman. Of course, that was his favorite character. He loves Batman. I smiled as I looked at that picture. That was my favorite one of us when we were little.

          As I was looking through the box, I noticed out the corner of my eye, someone standing in my door way. I looked up and turned my head to the left. It was Lily. “You know, you need to suck it up.” Lily said as she leaned on my door frame. She was wearing her black sweat pants with a baby blue tank top. Her hair was in a half pony tail. “What?” I asked as I set the picture in the box. “ That emo f*g. You need to get over him. You cry over him way to much.” Lily said.

          I love my sister, but she was pushing her luck with me. I am on that time of the month, and I am like a bomb waiting to go off. “Excuse me, Lily?” I said as I stood up and crossed my arms. “Don't think that I don't see it. You're in love with a fagot, Ashtyn. He is probably gay and using you as a cover up.” Lily said. “Lily, you probably don't even know what that word means.” I said as I turned around and put all my pictures and trinkets on my bed. I grabbed some bubble wrap and started to wrap them up.

          “You know I am right, Ashtyn.” Lily said in a tone. I cant believe my sister was saying this. She has never been this crude before. I just ignored her and went back to packing my things. “He is probably on drugs and slits his wrists, too.” Lily said as she looked at her nails. That is it. I love you Lily, but I am gonna give it to you.

          I dropped what I was doing down and looked at Lily. “Listen here, Lillian.” I said as I glared at her. “You need to shut your mouth and do it fast. You know nothing about Andy. He is not on drugs and he does not slice his wrists. He was raised better than that. Oh, and he is not 'emo'. He is different, like me.” I said with a loud voice. “Have you seen they way he dresses and make up he wears? He wears eyeliner. That is for girls.” “Yes, I have! I happen to like they way he looks. I love him for him. Now what he wears and what he looks like. And, eyeliner can be for anybody!” I said throwing my hands up in the air.

          “Wow. You really are a freak. Just like him.” Lily said in a sassy attitude. “Yes, Lillian! We are freaks! I am proud to say that!” by this point I was yelling like a mad person. “Don't think you are all big and bad, Ashtyn. How about you just go live with Andy. That way, not of you can go cry in a corner and cut each other.” Lily said as she turned around and started to walk out of my room.

I was furious. I wanted to choke the living breath out of her. I didn't even think. I just grabbed my phone and chunked it at her head. She better be lucky. I missed my a half inch. My phone hit the wall in front of her and smashed into pieces. Lily stopped walking and turned at me with her eyes wide. “You are crazy!” “I guess it runs on my dad's side the family. After all, he was a mortician.” I said as I glared at her.

          All of a sudden, Hector came out of his room. My mother didn't. She was out for the night. The look on his face was priceless. He was mad as hell. He could tell Lily and I were fighting. He even noticed how I decorated the wall. Part of my phone was stuck in the wall.

          “What the hell is going on here?” Hector said as he looked at the wall then at us. “Dad, everything is alright.” Lily said as she looked at him. “Lily, what happened?” Hector said louder. “We got into a argument and Ashtyn throw her phone at my head. She missed though.” Lily said. “Ashtyn, come here, now!” Hector said as he pointed to the ground next to him. I walked over to him and crossed my arms and stuck my hip out.

          “What?” I said as I glared at him. “Why did you throw your phone at Lily?” he asked. “Why do you care?” “Don't talk to me that way.” He said. “I'll talk to you however I want! You are not my dad.” I said yelling at him. Out of nowhere, he slapped me right across my face.

          I put me hand over my right cheek. I could feel the heat from him hitting me. That is the first time any one has ever hit me. I looked at him through my black bangs, glared. My blue eyes were intense. Intense with furry and hatred. I couldn't stand him. He ruined my life ever since I was two. I wasn't about to put up with him.

          I straightened my head and moved my bangs from my face. “Just because you are mad at something, doesn't mean you take it out on me and my daughter. You better watch yourself. If you are mad at something, how about you take it out on your dead beat dad.” “Don't you ever talk about my dad!” I yelled as I put all the force in my arm and went into to punch him.

          He grabbed me by my hand and twisted my arm. I felt the pain jolting up my arm. I yelped out in pain. Then, he grabbed me by the neck with his other hand as he twisted my arm. He pushed my into a mirror we have at the end of the hallway. From my waist up went into the mirror. Glass went everywhere. One shard went right into my wrist. That had to have been the worst pain I have ever felt. Then, everything went dark.