Sarah's Confession.

Hey, if you can�t think of anything to write... Have somebody else do it. Somehow feeling in a dramatic mood, I tried to write a confession. I got pretty bored. So instead I wrote a confession from her point of view. (Sarah is the main character o

A confession.

My name is Sarah Ingrid Presten. And I…am in trouble.

I'm not sure if I'll live for much longer, at this rate. There've been too many close calls already. And I'm afraid that when I'm gone, my family won't know. They'll never know what happened to their daughter. So many things they'll never know. No one...will ever know. That I was perhaps the most powerful being on the planet. That I loved. And lost. And that...I tried. I tried my best. Please believe that, if nothing else.

I can't just leave them without an explanation. A confession, I guess. And an apology, because do I ever owe them one. Not just that, I mean, there are other things, things I want the world to know when I'm gone...so listen close, because like I said, who knows how much time I have left before…you know.

I've done terrible things. I lied to my father. Big time. Fought against him, even, without him ever knowing it. I turned a blind eye to the suffering of others, because I had other things to do. I committed the greatest evil I can think of, I took a child from his mother, I...God, I kidnapped my own brother. I let my stupid pride get people hurt. I stole things that I needed. And I think...I think I could have done more. To save her. And every day I have to watch him fall deeper into despair and wonder...could I have prevented that?

You had no idea. You still have no idea. I died. Literally. And I had to watch someone I loved die. Death, all around me...like I'm some kind of magnet. I hated it. I still do. And the worst part is, I wasn't a victim of circumstance. I asked for this. All of it. And it came, s**t, did it ever come. I'm a magnet, in so many ways. More than I can count.

A magnet for destiny, she said. You know what that means? I'll translate: means I'm not important. I draw important people to me, somehow, but I'm just...ordinary compared to them. Twins from an extinct race. A dragon-whisperer. The last of a slaughtered people...and the vampire. An abolitionist from a hidden continent, a deserter from an underwater army, and an amnesiac fairy, who knew? Makes you laugh, doesn't it? Seems pretty impossible. I mean, that's quite a collection of individuals. And who am I compared to them? Just a girl. Please, no matter what judgments you make of me, remember that. I was just a kid.

I shouldn't complain. Most of it was good. Honestly. I...friends. I have friends. I know maybe it doesn't sound like such a big deal to you, but they were more than friends. They were my family. Ha ha...my crazy, dysfunctional family, but nonetheless…and I flew. You can't imagine, but let me tell you, it's fantastic. Almost worth it, just for that feeling. And yeah, for those of you who wondered, I was in love with him. Still am. He's my world...and I think I'll miss him the most. You know, when I'm gone.

I wish there was some way to show you what we've all been through. If there was a way for me to just show you what I've seen, my memories, I would do it in a second. A rush of images and emotions that would overall just convey...what? Desperation? Joy?

Courage?

To my parents, I am so sorry. And I hope that somehow this finds its way to the rest of the world, so everyone will know...that...what. "I'm sorry", again? I have nothing to apologize for. Only my parents deserve that. To the world, then, I guess I would just say...again, remember that I was just a kid. We all were. We were all young and pretty stupid, but we did our best and that was pretty much all we could do.

Was it enough?

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Holy. This is good. It's...well, deep isn't the word I'm looking for, but it's close. It's very...dramatic in a good way. I can't think of a word to use that wont understate it.