Never Had, Never Was

A short, prose poem

     I wanted it. I hoped for it. I prayed for it. I literally prayed for it, and the gods must have been listening because it happened.

     I honestly thought I would be happy, but after I have seen this play out, I only pity you. You are twenty-one, divorced, and an alcoholic who is trapped in the emotionless environment that is the military. 

     My pity for you grows more, and more, with every message of desperation sent to me, but still I want you. I want everything about you. Your tan skin, hazel eyes, and your strangely tiny ears. I want all of you for myself, again. I want you to be mine, again, but maybe that is why I do not have you. I thought you were mine, more than that, I suppose I thought I owned you. I assume this is the reason I do not have you.

     I thought I had what was never mine, and is now no one's, but still cannot be mine.

Reviews

[Stephen]

"I thought I had what was never mine, and is now no one's, but still cannot be mine." Ah! What a lovely sentimental line. I loved this one .. it's touched me...yeah, this line's touched my heart with the power of emotions which are raw. It defines how much pain you passing through even though you already know the reason of pain and better know how to get off your pain but you still want because it's what where happiness of yours's hidden ... there's always happiness behind the pain and there's always pain behind the love. What a gorgeous prose poem which's came from the depth of your heart. I liked this stuff!