Return

“I’m quite alone” I said today,
The words making a place to stay
The filling thud of heart on chest
I cannot seem to fill the rest

I don’t know why I feel as though
The sky has darkened and so’s the glow
Of an amber sun that burned so high
I am no longer friends with the pale blue sky

I’m weirdly fine with where I am
I’ve given up trying where I can
This numbness washes over me
Like the Atlantic Ocean or Irish Sea

I’m adrift amongst the brilliant waves
The silver horses and windswept caves
My heart just aches for someone who
Knows me for me, just through and through

I do not want to fall into step
Of deadening worry and constant fret
This will not be my normality
This is not what I want for me

I miss that I don’t have someone
Who makes my heart race and nerves just run
I want my person back again
I miss him as a person and as my friend

The house will be empty tomorrow night
Up and left, it does not feel right
To sit alone and pine for them
Part of me wonders how and when

So I’ll sit at home and wonder why
The stars have fallen from the sky
And why the clouds have closed on in,
All because I yearn for him.

He keeps his songs, his little lie
I keep my poems a tell tale sign
We’ve grown and changed and miss our smiles
Oh boy, oh boy, it’s been a while.