A feeling of emptiness is something that we experience at some times in our
life. Many of us know what it is and how it feels. But strangely enough, it’s
difficult to explain or describe in words. Then how do we know about it?
From my
own experience I’ve found an appropriate picture to the feeling:
‘During these helpless times, we feel being nobody.
We are sick of questions such as who am I? What am I doing? Where am I going?
Our mind makes us lost in these questions and confused in no answers. We get
butchered by an inner voice, knocking in our soul on these questions. Our life
gets off interest. We are no longer inspired by how the environment looks. Our
exterior has now been insignificant as we run away each time we look in the
mirror. We rest assured in being humiliated from a simple glance or even word
of any person. Building up a mask to our feelings, we lock ourselves in a room
and don’t come out. We abandon important to us people without any reasons.
Then, feeling lonely, we get hugged by a teddy bear. We see the world in black
and white. Living spark in our eyes had already snuffed out. With time we lose
hope. Hoping against hope, when there is nothing more left than only dreams, we
start to create a world, closed from everyone’s sight. A world of our dreams...
Somewhere there we live in a castle standing on a
rock. It’s our shelter. There is nothing else around, except water surrounding
the rock. Slowly, it approaches from
all the sides. And then, suddenly, we realize that we are in the middle of the
reality. Its bullets pierce with heartache. Our soul breaks into small pieces
and with the tears fall in nowhere. It’s
a conflict. We are faced with emptiness...’
Everyone's soul is an ocean. Our feelings live in its waves. The waves sail while we are at peace. But when something explosive falls in waves, they become rough. The ocean starts to rage. And in order to return it to its normal state, this threat must be cleared up or disarmed.
But when people ask us: 'Hey, what happened? Are you ok? or 'What's wrong?' we use to answer: 'Oh, nothing! I'm fine. Everything is all right'. Why? We all are human beings who seek meaning, value and understanding. So then why do we hide our feelings? Why do we never express them? Do we really need 'raged ocean of feelings' inside us?