Chapter One

A stable, healthy relationship between mother and daughter...one I wish I had, but don't.

I wanted her to love me and not pretend I didn't exist. I existed and she knew, but my younger sister had gotten in the way, so most of the attention was focused upon her.

I was the daughter with the anger attitude in which my mom was not proud of. Most of the time, I can't help but get angry with her because she doesn't understand how I feel inside. Nor with she ever.

I want to understand what is wrong with me and why I can't just push my anger aside and get along with her. Everyone else is noticed and happy around her, so why can't I be?

I merely think it's because of something i hold deep inside of me, never daring or wishing to make it better. As I express my anger , my mom starts getting frustrated. We butt heads almost constantly because we are eachother's opposites. I am nothing like her and can't ever seem to reach up to her high standards. My sister is beautiful, has the perfect boyfriend in which my parents adore, and she is smart. She is everything i am not and wish to be. She is my mom's ideal daughter while I am shoved aside and swept under the rug to be left alone. I wish for my mom to see me as she would my sister, but that is not possible. Anyone knows my mom loves my sister more because she is "mommy's little girl" and I am dad's. My dad is who I truly love, not my mom or sister.

They can both fade away and I would be happy again.

Reviews

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Nice write.
Thanks for posting.

[J.P. Lylinstern]

Powerful. I truly get a feel for your situation, and though it's something we hear a lot about with families, you use your writing and make it seem like a wholy unique, singular situation that only applies with you, but without seeming conceited.
It seems weird rating someone's personal experience, but great job.

[Sargroth]

Very emotional.

[_////---Elektrik Phanto..]

yeah that sucks. i'm part of a similar situation, but instead it's with my dad. well, maybe my mom too, but i haven't seen her since i was two.