Words of pain

Can't look into the eyes
Can't see the person I love
The pain
The hurt
It all came back
I feel worthless
The words that were said were true
But hateful
I cried a mile long race
I almost died that night when my soul lefted my body
I feel cold
I feel lost
I don't see the person I love anymore
I have been thrown away like trash
Anything I say means nun to anyone
I need help
I need to be find again
HELP