Chapter 03

~Zack’s POV~

It’s been a month since the day Brian left me. I’m 6 months along now and thankfully I’m completely healed finally. Took forever... I can finally breathe normal without a twinge of pain in my ribs. and it always hurt worse when the babies kicked at my ribs. Talk about hell on earth. But I love the babies with all my heart. I found out I’m having sons. Identical twin boys. I’ve been thinking of names. So far I got nothing. But I know I’ll get it over time. Hell Rome wasn’t built in a day and my sons didn’t grow in a day either. That would be weird... You find out you’re pregnant, you’re all excited then boom you got a huge a*s belly. Then within minutes of that you are pushing. So does not work that way. Jesus that makes me cringe.

ANYWAY!!!! I’ll admit I’ve been really down since Brian left me. I mean he is the love of my life... The father of my sons... He’s my everything... And he left me on the side of the road like a discarded soda bottle... It really hurts I mean we go from being happy as ever to him ditching me, dumping me just because I’m pregnant.

Jimmy visits me every day. I don’t really have the drive to go to school but he drags me everyday. He literally comes to my house every morning at 6:00 AM, wakes me up, tells me to shower as he makes me breakfast, we eat together then he walks with me to school. He’s been my rock through all this. When I’m at school Brian stays away from us all. The guys support me and because of that Brian steers clear. He knows what he did was wrong but won’t admit it.

It’s been hard on me, on all of us. Jimmy has tried many things to cheer me up but none work. Now Matt, Arin, Jimmy, and Johnny are my protectors. They try to keep me safe from the cheerleaders and anyone who wants to hurt me. That is a lot of people lately. This morning was very interesting though. Jimmy had a bag in his hand and held it out to me. “What is this?” I asked taking it.

“A surprise so open it.” Jimmy said happily. He was jittery with excitement. I laughed and sat crossing my legs so they would support my belly some. I reached into the bag and pulled out a pair of black denim jeans that had a chinese dragon going around the left leg from hip to ankle. I looked at the size and cheered seeing they were maternity pants.

“These are so cool Jimmy thank you!” I smiled and stood putting them on. “How do I look?”

“Just dashing. But there is something else in the bag.” He smiled at me. I reached into the bag and pulled out a shirt. “Read it.”

I turned it around and noticed it had a picture and words. The picture was of a baby trying to not go out of the mothers uterus and saysIf this people are my family I’m not coming out I gasped and started laughing so hard I snorted. “Jimmy where did you find this?!” I was laughing so hard I could barely breathe. I smiled putting it on. “I love it. Thank you!” I hugged him and smiled.

He smiled back. “Welcome kid. What time is your appointment today? Is your mom taking you?”

“It’s at 12:45. I’m getting a cab. Mom has to work and can’t get off so I gotta go alone.” I said as I grabbed a granola bar and bit into it. “Part of being a single mom huh?”

“But it’s not fair Zack. He helped create them. What he did to you was amazingly wrong. He should not have dumped you. I know he loves you. I just know it.” He hugged me and I shrugged. “How about I go with you to your appointment. You shouldn’t go alone man.”

“You sure? It’s gonna be boring for you I think...”

“I want to come so I’m going. Deal?” I nodded and smiled. “Great. Now let’s get to school.” I grabbed my bag and smiled. “Come on mama.” I groaned and elbowed you. “Hey!”

I smiled. “Yes?” I put my book bag over one shoulder and started walking with him. “Got a problem there Sullivan?”

“Nah I’m good.” I smiled walking with him.

~Jimmy’s POV~

It was amazing at Zack’s appointment. I saw his sons moving on the screen. It was really so magical. I watched as the doctor showed him the hearts, arms, legs and heads. The doctor said both boys are healthy as can be. We went back to school later on and met the others in biology. Brian still stays as far from Zee as possible and we can all see how that upsets Zee. He tries to act like it doesn’t affect him but we know it does.

Later that evening something happened that made me decide that things need to happen. I was sitting in my room listening to music on my laptop at 3:00 AM. I looked at my cell as it started ringing. I recognized the ringtone as Zack and grabbed it. “Hello?” I asked.

I knew something was wrong before he answered me. He only calls this late at night if he is upset or lonely. I heard him sniffle. “Jimmy?” He was crying. I could tell. “Can you come over?”

I was already standing and grabbing my shoes and keys. “Totally man. I’ll be right over. Is your window unlocked?”

“Yeah.” He replied with another sniffle. “It’s always unlocked lately.” He attempted a chuckle but didn’t work.

“I’ll be there in 10 minutes. You hold tight ok?” I heard him acknowledge what I said then he hung up. I left my parents a note that I’d most likely be at Zack’s all night. Both of our families got used to me going over and just staying with Zack when he’s upset. I went out my front door then went to his house. I walked down the street and to his house. I climbed up the lattice and went to his window. I opened it and went in. “Zee? I’m here.”

He was lying on his bed in a ball. Well as much of a ball as possible with that belly of his. “Jimmy.” He sat up and reached for me. I walked over and sat hugging him rubbing his back. He cried into my chest and my heart melted.

“What happened Zee? Talk to me.” I held him and he kept crying for what seemed an eternity. “Did you dream about him again?” He nodded. “How about You tell me about it? Hmm?”

Zack shook his head at first and kept crying. Finally he calmed and just hugged me. “I dreamed about how we used to be. Then I saw him dump me again. But instead of dumping me when I was 5 months pregnant... The twins were 2 years old. Most adorable angels ever. He dumped me in front of them. He said how he hated them and wished they were never born. I had to explain to them that it wasn’t their fault and it broke my heart!”

I frowned and held him. “It’s gonna be ok Zacky. I promise. I know it hurts but you’ve got me, Matt, Aaron, and Johnny. Right?”

“Can I tell you a secret?” He asked and I nodded. He sighed. “I really love my sons, with my whole heart but sometimes I wish I never got pregnant. If I didn’t get pregnant Brian would still be here... I want Brian back... I want my boyfriend. I can’t handle this. I mean I’ve been contemplating adopting them out to some family who wants them just so i can get my Brian back.” He sighed. “I don’t know what to do... Do I give them away? Keep them? Give up all together?”

I hugged him. “No Zee. Keep them. You are their mommy. I know you want them. So don’t get rid of them. Promise me you won’t ok?” He nodded and I hugged him. “Get some sleep. I’ll protect you from bad dreams.” I kicked off my shoes and laid by his side to comfort him.

So now I am on a mission the everyone but Zack knows about. It’s called operation Kick A*s. After that talk last night with Zee I decided this has to come to an end. No more of this s**t with Brian. No more being a prick. Zack is taking the day off to rest. Me and the guys are gonna bring him his homework. I walked into the courtyard and looked for Brian. I saw him kissing another boy against the school wall.

I stalked over and grabbed the back of his shirt. I yanked him back and shoved him hard to the nearest wall. I glared at him. “What the f**k are you doing Haner?”

“Let me go Jimmy. I will kick your a*s if you don’t.” I kept staring. “I mean it Jimmy.” I stood there waiting for him to prove he was bluffing. Brian always bluffs. He pulled his fist up but his hand was shaking.

“Come on Brian. Hit me I dare ya. I can’t wait to throw your a*s into the grass.” I smiled. “Well?” He didn’t do anything. I then pulled my fist back and gave a strong right hook. I smiled as he fell to his hands and knees in the grass. “Now Brian. What the hell is going on in your head? Why did you do this to Zack huh?” He didn’t answer me. “Well?” Again no answer. I kicked his side. “Answer me Haner.”

He groaned. “F**k off. You don’t understand.”

He went to stand and I knocked him down. “Don’t understand how? Hmm?”

He growled. “I’m not the f*****g father!”

~TBC~