MY INNER VOICE

A poem about depression

My Inner Voice

 

Acid eats at my over exhausted brain.

It burns............. this never ending pain.

Falling, colliding, constantly sliding.

I desperately seek my place of hiding.

 

Evaporating away from  it all,

escaping this constant brawl

in my bruised mashed up head.

 Spiralling toward a need to be dead.

 

Or will I only leave flesh

and retain my unhappy mesh.

The webs that keep me jailed

within this mind where I have failed.

 

Never.............. good enough.

Feeling fake............. a constant bluff.

Bleak and pale................ in comparison.

A mere shadow............ of a skeleton.

 

Seeking beauty from outside

has led me to miss my guide.

The mirrors within my heart

were left black and tarred.

 

Taking myself by the hand,

braking down the crusts of filth and sand,

I found the first shimmer of light.

The one that sets my heart a flight.

 

I realize my strength is from within

and that from now I will begin

to trust this sparkle from my core,

finding life no longer such a chore.

 

Suddenly I feel strong, pure and no longer bleak

as I seek and constantly speak,

with this ethereal voice as my guide.

I no longer shy away and hide.

 

I have learnt to see and trust

what is inside my wide expanse..... and lust,

for my inner feeling, the one from the source.

Now the only road that sets my course.

 

 

 

Author's Note

I have been depressed before yet am lucky not to suffer from it on an ongoing basis. Yet it affects so many people world wide. This poem takes moments of my time spent in this space.

Reviews

[Just_Joshing]

I have a few friends who used to suffer from depression, so I showed them this poem, and they said it matched their feelings at the time quite accurately. Great job! More to the point though, I really liked the use of rhyme (I stated this on more than occasion, I believe). Also, the use of descriptive language was quite adept! Overall, a gem of a poem!

[Elmarie]

Hello there Thank you for the motivating review even with the subject matter being a bit depressing :) Blessings El

[Einstein Noodle]

so happy that this is so filled with understanding and reaching out instead of being actively confessional ..depression is huge ..afflicts way more of us than one would think ..so many go under diagnosed, or undiagnosed ...many suffer without understanding at all what is going on with them ..a tragedy all around ..and those close say .."snap out of it" ...'pull up your boot straps" etc. etc. ..bravo for writing and educating at the same time! not to mention ..getting it all out ;)
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[Elmarie]

Thank you for such a lovely review. It's a deep issue that is only really understood by the person that goes through it. Blessings El

[Einstein Noodle]

and blessing to you Elmarie!

[andrew mitchell]

I think I've been here too in the depths of hopelessness, the feeling of being trapped within oneself etc. Anyway I superb write

[Elmarie]

Thank you Andrew. :)

[AliciaB]

This is a vivid depiction of the experience of depression. Each of the images, such as those of the "mesh" and "webs", "black and tar[r]ed" mirrors (I think it's supposed to be "tarred"; I'd go back and check, as you may have a typo), and "crusts of filth and sand" creates a relatable and detailed picture of the many facets of your feelings about this. The lines that are most powerful to me are "In my bruised mashed up head / Spiraling towards a need to be dead". They are very intense, and I have to say, disturbing and terrifying. The fact that you so openly state such dark thoughts makes my heart hurt for you. I am sincerely sorry that you have undergone this experience, and I am praying for you. Keep up that hope and confidence in yourself that is so apparent at the end of the poem. You are a wonderful writer and gift to the world!

[Elmarie]

Alicia I have to thank you for pointing out the typo. English second language. I personally believe I have a far way to go with writing and enjoy the expression. It's strange how dark poetry can be easier to write sometimes. Thank you for your kind thoughts I am a happy person now a days with a loving family. I have not suffered from depression all my life yet have had some lows like most people have. I guess you have to have lows to recognize the highs. Blessings to you :) El

[William Liston]

This poem has a very good message. I liked how the poem changes from a depressed mood to a more hopeful one in the end. As someone who's been depressed before (as all people have), I can easily relate to this. Great job, El.

-William Liston

[Elmarie]

Thanks William for taking the time to review. :)