An Undeserved Apology

Something I decided to write due to all of the crap I've been through lately.

Sometimes when I cry at night.

you act like it's nothing.

When I try to tell you it's

your fault,

you deny it

and say I'm telling

lies.

 

Because that's all

I am:

A liar and a failure.

I am the daughter

you never wanted.

 

Don't try to tell me

that I'm

making

it

all

up.

 

Feelings don't lie.

Tears don't lie.

Broken hearts

don't lie.

 

You can stand there

and tell me not to write this.

But,

in truth,

I don't give a damn.

 

You've hurt me.

That- you can't deny.

You have to realize what you've done.

 

So,

though I shouldn't have to tell you this,

I'm sorry.

 

i'm sorry for being a teenager,

sorry for being imperfect.

I'm sorry for trying to rebel.

 

Maybe what you need to do

is let me be myself.

Let me be who I want to be.

 

Then, maybe,

maybe, you'll

understand what

you have done to me.

 

Until then,

I don't know what to do.

You give me no

choice

but to

cry.

 

I cry

when I'm all alone

in the dark place

that is my room

into the cool

pillow that is

my only friend.

Reviews

[Sarah Jane]

wow, I love reading poetry that relates to me, and this is me. I'm in the same situation and I aprriciate the honesty in your words.